Poems From The Heart - Say You Don’t Love Me Anymore

A blast from the past was so unexpected.
And I didn't know where my feelings currently lied.
The secret lust I had for you had gone undetected
So the fact that I wanted you came as a surprise.
Like a hammer on a nail you had me pinned
You knew what made me laugh, cry, and smile.
And just like an idiot, I let you in…
Knowing that you would hurt me all the while.
I thought I was strong enough to take the pain
Of knowing that I would never be your girl.
But you killed me softly and drove me insane.
Now there are only broken fragments inside my world.
And mending a heart is no easy task
But if I want to move on it has to be done.
One simple question that I must ask
Is why I was the chosen one?
What did I do to deserve this Karma?
How did I bring this upon myself?
You were the only one that I was fond of
Now contempt in my heart is all that's left.
You played your cards just like a champ
You played your part real smooth.
You treated me like I was some tramp
And I played the part like a fool.
Treading at your heals just like a puppy
Sprung and feeling like I was blessed.
Yes, I thought that I was so lucky
And I was willing to do anything at your request.
Denial can be a person's worst enemy
Because I just knew that one day you'd be mine.
Now I see you were never really feeling me
And I'm the one to blame for your crime.
If I could go back into the past
I'd erase everything about you
And then I would be free at last.
But I know that's something that I can't do.
My future looks even duller everyday.
I don't know what roads to take
And so I must constantly guess the way
Hoping I'm not making another mistake.
I'm scarred and left with bruises from things you did
Inside I'm constantly screaming
The thought of you makes me so scared, I flinch.
But it only hurts when I'm breathing.
Please tell me that you do not want me.
Please tell me I am nothing to you
Only then will your ghost no longer haunt me.
And I can get over it and pull through.
Until you say you don't want anything to do with me
I will be stuck with your memory
There is something constantly blue with me
And your negligence is slowly killing me.

by:Kelvalyn Arbizu