You gave birth to me(This is a very sad poem)
You gave birth to me
Written by D.A.M
August 25, 2006 (5:47pm)
( This is one of the hardest poems that I have ever had to write,
I just found out two days ago who my natural family was.
Be prepared get some tissues because this is a tear jerker)
I was lost for so many years
and now I have been found
All these years have gone by
and I didn't even know my birth name
But some how through all the pain
I have survived through time
and now for the very first
time in my life
I know your name
as well as mine
I never had a chance
to get to know you
so now a part of me will
always feel incomplete
Especially now
that I know
that you are gone
Two days ago I found out
that you were hit by a car
and taken away from me
and every one else in the family
twenty eight years ago
Now I am grieving and mourning
as if it just happened a couple
of days ago
Now I have to take a time out
to put all my thoughts together
to deal with all
of my mixed emotions
I do have to admit
at the moment
I feel like a lost soul
and my heart is broken in two
because all I ever wanted
was to get to know you
It's a shame that
I never did
get that chance
I really don't
understand why things
had to happen
the way that they did
Some day God will
have all the answers
that I will need
The hardest thing
that I have to deal with
right now
is the fact that
for so many years
I have looked for you
And I just couldn't find you
And now that I know
you have passed away
the days and the weeks
and the months ahead of me
will be very difficult
My heart is broken inside
in so many ways right now
Because you died
in the blinking
of an eye
and in my heart
it is like you
just died yesterday
I am so sorry
that I didn't
get to meet you
And I am sorry
that I didn't
have the chance
to embrace you
to comfort you
You were my
birth mother
and you had
to give me away
for unknown reasons
All these years
I felt it in my heart
that you missed me
as much as I missed you
And now I have to mourn
Because ever since the day
that I was born
when I was old enough
to understand
that all I have ever
wanted in my life
more then anything else
was to get to know you
and to let you know
how much I loved you
No matter what happened to me
through out the years
Never for one moment
did I ever stop
loving you
and I promise you
I never will
I have always loved you
unconditionally
And I have always
prayed for you to
I have always had
a forgiving heart
I just wonder if
I got that from you
I just wanted
to let you know
when every holiday
would come around
a part of me
would cry inside
because you
weren't by my side
All these years
I always wondered
what it would be like
to be around my own family
instead of being
an adopted son
The family that adopted me
loved me unconditionally
because they couldn't
have a son of there own
but I still went
through so many years
feeling so confused
and I went through many
years of pain and sorrow
And now I am having
to deal with your loss
at such a high cost
Some how
I have to
try and put
the bits and pieces
to my life
back together
all over again
one day at a time
I have always
wanted to meet you
and to tell you
that I loved you
unconditionally
The one thing
that has kept me going
through all of these years alone
and without you
is the fact that blood is
thicker then water
and that's the way
it is supposed to be
I am so sorry
that we couldn't
couldnt meet
each other
so that I could
embrace you one
time in my life time
Now I have to leave everything
in Gods hands
Some day
when it is my
time to go away
and enter into heaven
The first thing
that I will want to do
is to tell you
for the very first time
that I love you
But until that time comes
There will always
be a part of you
living in me
and a part of you
that is breathing
through me
with every breath I take
Because I am lucky
to be among the living.
I honestly know that
you loved me
for nine months
and all the days of your life
as I have loved you
God bless you
you gave birth to me.
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