I thought I had love all figured out
Written by D.A.M
July 21, 2007 (11:53pm)
(All good things come to an end
even when we dont want them to
and when they do all we can do
is hand all of our burdens over to the Lord)
I thought I had
love all figured out
I did everything that
I could possibly do right
and I was unselfish
in all of my decisions
And here I am today
dealing with confusion
and empty feelings
that I cannot explain
For the longest time
I found myself living in the fantasy
thinking there was a possibility
that there was such a thing
called compatibility
I was hoping
and dreaming
when that time came
that my prayers
would finally become a reality
so that I wouldn't ever be lonely
I truly hoped that I wouldn't ever be feeling
the emotional feelings that I am feeling right now
There is an uneasiness that I cannot possibly describe
because I truly feel empty inside
Unfortunately I had to see the light
to find out that everything wasn't alright
and that I couldn't make them right
I found out about reality
through the course of my journey
and it hasn't been easy
I have
learned many things along the way
through every experience
that I have already been through
from past to present
and I still have a lot more learning to do
I do realize
that things don't always work out
the way that we want them to
But some times it seems
like no matter how hard we try
to make everything right
that we do have to come to terms with
the consequences of our actions
Life is full of ups and downs
and it seems like lately
they have all been very confusing
I always heard that there
was a solution to every situation
and every problem that ever came my way
and then I realized
that even with total determination
that sometimes there are no answers
and some how deep inside I feel like I failed
Recently I woke up
and I had to face my own reality
of the possibility
and the probability
of living the rest of my life lonely
without someone to hold and love
