Where am I going
and from whence have I come?
Two questions I wish I knew the answer!
I wish I knew the reasons why
but let me try to quantify.
The one I can answer with any certainty
is where I may have been.
A path of many difficulties
is what I've travelled upon.
Uncertainties and dark obscured avenues
many stone-laden,
treacherous to the unwatchful.
Too often the path has been removed
and I've been left floundering,
unknowing what to do
which way to go?
I've only ever gone on instinct
that has been my guide.
I've worked on gut reaction
and 'felt' rather than knew!
So whether I've gained any wisdom
I shall never know.
I don't regret any path I've taken
because I've learnt things along the way.
I suppose I'm lucky I'm here talking with you today
there are many times the path could have led
in a totally different way.
But that's the last thing on my mind!
I do know I've been to hell and back
lingered at Hades' gates for a while.
Felt the pain of anguish
and the fear of knowing more.
The wrenching gut of heartache
where I was ripped to shreds.
The tears of an ocean poured
and washed it all away
til there was nothing left,
no reason to stay.
For me it was too late
I asked too many questions!
So much my head is done in
I haven't found an answer yet,
no matter how far I've come.
So to answer your query as to where I been?
I don't know!
I still travel this road
my shoes all but threadbare.
But I must carry on,
I must climb this ascending stair
it leads me back to sunlight
of this I am sure.
So as to where I'm going?
Who knows where this path will take me?
I just know I have to go!
So if that answers your questions,
I hope it's eased your mind!
Because I know the overwhelming frustration
so I'll not put you through the same.
That is not my way
I don't play games!
