I've fabricated myself into the projection of my life long perfection that has been foreseen Thu out my hard lived years.
After wiping away all tears of the years I used to regret, but now I can feel how I will be able to help some other that has fallen short of their hopes to exceed past my dreams.
That took away my self esteem and drive to succeed, as I no longer lead my life to live.
Or did I give in order to receive, I would not believe in anything not even myself.
That's how I lost all respect for everything that I once did, and I showed you as I prayed every day before I ate and mention all their names.
And I'm ashamed to claim them today that's why I walked away, they may take what was promised if I stayed.
I was weighed everyday of my life as my bloody hands worked life long calluses that still stand to show what kind of men we are "HARD".
That has taken at times my will to give as I live homeless wondering why I still live.
All I ever knew I lost when my father divorced and payed you and what did you two do. got married did anyone else go through or was promised anything if they stayed and got weighed everyday as we built a dream that was to be mine if I stayed who do you think stood beside you as we stood on top building our farm.
You don't see your harm as I run this needle through my arm to some day cry, I pray I never get the urge to fly your way bye.
when I decide to say good-bye in your suicide father may I, now mother,father tell your lie's and you wonder why .....