I am not going unless He invites me,
I do not deserve to be in His presence,
He is too holy for me, His children have too much faith in me ---
His people see too much potential in me,
my parents have too much confidence in me,
my family trusts me too much and my close friends believe in me too much,
My mom loves me too much,
my dad cares about me too much,
I can never grow if I am only around people who love and care about me,
I have to be mature in order to have a relationship with Him,
I need my mom to tell me how to act when she is not there,
I need everyone else to let me know just how not to act and what not to do,
my closest friend needs to stop giving me positive feedback ----
She needs to stop telling me "There I Go" and "I am doing good"
she needs to stop calling herself bad,
she needs to stop doing things just to get people to like her ----
I do not want you to think that she is naive because she is not,
people come to her for knowledge and advice,
I go to her for wisdom only ----
I can remember her better when she is not around if she lets me know not to disappoint her,
this will help her gain respect for herself,
this will help her have faith in herself,
she is not crazy and she is definitely not stupid ----
She just needs to let me know what she wants from me instead of what I need!