I never did like the lies
I always hated finding out the truth
Only because it kills me inside
Why is it so hard to be honest
You are supposed to be loyal to me
I was meant to be your companion
You didn't have to be with me
You chose me this way
I never expected it to turn out this way
I am not a liar so why would i want attention
Why would i pretend to have epilepsy
It disappeared for ten years
I never expected it to come back
I gave you another chance after you hurt me
You bruised my heart i don't have an ego
You didn't have to be with me
It was far away
Yet you still broke my heart
You couldn't be faithful and you certainly were not loyal at all
You took everything from me
You took advantage
Both of you did
I am so hurt i am so afraid to love again
When the chance comes i run away
I find it so hard to believe
Or just afraid i'd let them take me in their arms and they'd let go
Or keep me just to torture me
If i was a dork you knew i was
Nobody told you to stay
You could have walked away
You decided you liked it
I couldn't be caged up i needed to have fun
I am allowed to be a little dorky it aint a crime
All i wanted was decency
Honesty
Loyalty
And someone to be with me and commit to me
To have fun with me
And not pretend to be someone else to try and impress me
YOU BOTH DID
It started off too good to be true
For once in my life i give up
I want to be alone
Both of you leave me alone
You had your chances
Someday a great guy who is decent will appreciate who i am and what i am about
At least for now i will go my own way
Get my life back on track and see what will happen
