(this again isn't about me so i have to clarify this as the other poem never learn from a puppet master also inspired this poem its rather dark i know i don't usually do it but this turned out to be)
Giving up on everything
Say its never worth giving up on this thing
Well it is
Especially if for so many years you try your hardest with your heart of bliss
All you get is a selfish evil response for what you do
Never a please or a thank you
Craving the love and support
The attention and affection Daddy may he rest in peace had once given me some would just abort
Oh so now I'm a culprit
You messed me up to each bit
You screw everything loose and up and up the sky
Your ears never work and that sucks really high
I wish you were a vacuum so i could suck all the contents of my past into you
Maybe then you'll understand just how i felt so oppressed and ripped into
Emotional agony
Without anybody
I was so lonely
Bullies all day to come to you
To come to that peado who could screw it over the loo
Was just too bad
I wish i did runaway that night and gave up all i ever had
I still forgive you, but just for the sake of almighty
Only because i love the Almighty
I wanna be a good role model i wanna be a good example
I am older now i should just let it go like not to cry over a finished sample
No, but i gotta go
I can't breathe with all this hanging over me its time to go
Its just too much for me
Can't you see
I can't take the pain
Can't handle the stress of you ever again
Burdening me with all your trash
Take it to the bin like i even have time to pick up your stupid little pieces of your stupid life deal with your own pathetic stash
Moving on I've had enough puppy slush
Turn the page chapter flush
It doesn't matter
I want to shred the past
Yet i still and won't forget what aint been a blast
But i don't want it to affect me
How it did then coz even with you glasses you still don't see
I will move on and you will see
When i am gone i know you'll want to find me
But how hard will you try
Really all you do is fake the water works you'll only learn if you fry
I CAN STEP UP
I CAN BE STRONG i aint no pup
You always patronize me
Like i am not wise enough i am smart all you do is put me way down like a rock in the sea
Like i aint brain powered or good enough
All you are without me is fluff
You put me down all of my life
In comparison to whomever, who aint even got guts to be the wife
I was then have you forgotten how good i was, but in your eyes i will never be good enough even if i was a doctor I'd be the knife
I am strong i can do this
DON'T PATRONIZE ME just coz my heart is gold, gentle bliss
I CAN DO THIS
Confronted all of a sudden
Too soon had you forgotten
everything you did
Everything that you said like some lost bid
All i wanted was a little love
You hate it when i cuddle you not a lost bleeding dove
All i wanted was a little hug at night
to tell me everything was gonna be OK to cover me up and turn off my light
The only comfort i had was that stray ginger beautiful cat
Until you let it out one night i never saw it again never again on my lap it sat
Now i wish it was still here
It was only the best EVER with it i never did fear
It put me to sleep each night with a purr
Letting me know it was all OK, a cuddle with its head and soft shining fur
You never got it
Nor will you ever get it
Only when i am gone
You'll get it then when i am gone
Its always the hard way
Always with you its that way or no way
No points are arrowed as to a direction
No reason to stay not to mention...
Where i am unloved and unwanted
Can't think of today
Let alone yesterday
It kills me inside
I am trapped in a never ending tide
I need my board to surf the tide
Need a good old ride
Too late to make it alright
It will never be the same EVER AGAIN
We're just not compatible i tried to get a good relationship with you even through all the pain
Nothing seems to work i am losing it can't risk going insane
You love everyone more than you'll ever love me
You only need me
Yet i refuse to give to those who are not in need
Not enough that for you i do feed
I want to run away
So far away
Where i can see another day
Without the evil that you have to say
