When I feel darkness inside me
I try not to show it
When I'm helpless and worthless
You'd never know it.
Sometimes I wish
I could fade away,
But it's his love
That makes me want to stay.
On days when I cry
I feel selfish and wonder why
I am failing to see the good
When I've always been told that I should.
It's agony when a friend gives birth
To think there is no way on Earth
It can ever be me
A deep bleeding wound
That never heals,
And no one else can see.
There are days when I realise
What I've lost
And I can't change it
Whatever the cost.
I'll never dance in the sun
Or run in the rain,
I'm angry now
But I'll smile again.
I know I am missing
So many things,
But I'll treasure each moment
When my heart can sing...