I always thought you understood me
Its like you're cloning into someone i no longer know
I'm rejected and neglected
You won't find what you left behind
You think they're better so whats making you stay
You can leave
I go home and someone's there, but nobody's home its where i lay hiding my feelings
Broken inside and i can't even talk to you
I can't talk to anyone
I have been sinful in harming myself
If i ever told you you'll only say i am mental
You never seem to understand you're driving me to this
Then angered by the bills on the phone
Samaritans are all i can rely on
I'm broken inside
I only got my love from my Father may he rest in peace
Mom was neglected and lived a bad life
I don't blame her for not giving me everything i need
I still love her, but i always knew i had you to turn to
Now i don't have anything or anyone and no where to go
How can you believe him and not me
How can you say i am all the things i am not
How can you dare to repeat history
How can you how could you say I'll never get where i need to get in life
How could you ever say nothing good will come in my life
How could you think i threw a lifetime of happiness down the drain
How could you ever know he's everything he seems
You don't even know
How could you blame me for something I'm innocent of
How could you listen to such nonsense about me
How could you still compare me to my past
I MADE MISTAKES
JUST LIKE YOU
I AM FAMED AND NOT A ONE HIT WONDER
I wish you'd forget or i wished i had amnesia and just forgot who i was
Who everyone was and the horrid past i have to remember each waking day
I hate who i am
I hate who you've made me think i am
I know what i want and i know who i am
So why don't you ever support me
Your encouragement is so bad it makes me sick
You don't believe in me
You never support me
Yet I'm always the extra hand you need
I love you so much i cannot say no
You speak without thought
You speak without considering how you're talking to me
You always tell me why i speak to people the way i do
They're sweet and it makes me feel so happy
Then you speak to me harshly and i end up having to talk over you
I never intend to be this way
You're not seeing i am mirror of yourself
You're the same its almost identical
I see the way you speak to others and then to me
When you need love i am always here
I will always be here
I am broken and it hurts
My bones are fine its my emotions
My feelings are all over the place
I hope I'm not losing my mind
Coz of everyone my dreams i can't find
My faith is here, but sometimes its not always sky high
I'm falling from grace
Place to place
I'm lost inside a bubble of insecurity
You used to make it a bubble of sanctuary and now you make it like hell
I no longer do anything bad to myself
Thank God to the Samaritans at least they're a phone call away
A second away when i need a good chat and a giant cry
I don't need a shoulder coz nobody is offering
I am so confused and i am feel so alone
You don't even want to understand
I find it hard to explain and you never read anything i write
Its where i let it out
Thank God for paper and pens
If you found me dead I'd be dead on a cold wooden floor next to pen and paper
I'd die from all the agony you're emotionally drowning me in
Stop tuning me out
Nothing is good enough
Implying i am worthless and not good enough
When i try my best regardless of all my medical conditions
Physical and emotional i am battling to try and help
Nothing is ever good enough for you
If you want to leave then what is keeping you here
JUST LEAVE stop breaking my heart with such evil injustice
