When my soul bitterly wept
counting my losses
silently
lovingly
YOU held me...
in unrelievable pain
and unending cries
my thoughts darkened
with perpetual waves
of disbelief..
is this my reality?
YOUR faithful presence
though quiet
never deserted me...
as my enemies gathered
quickly
joining forces
intending to destroy me
YOU, were my invisible shield
my MIGHTY FORTRESS
that my tears blinded to see....
At first glance
i felt i stood alone
abandoned by all
i spoke not like a fool with my mouth,
my mind held words i dare not repeat....
BUT in all the midnight madness
i began to laugh like i had never laughed before
i lost the ability to feel alone
Even this....I didn't want the sun to rise.
ALL that i thought i lost
i desired not, no more
never wanting to retrieve it...
For Lord, in my Midnight crisis
my soul gained a nearness to YOU
worth more then all my losses.
I love YOU JESUS FOREVER!
I once thought these things were valuable, but now i consider them worthless
because of what Christ has done. Yes everything else is worthless when compared
with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For His sake i have
discarded everything else, counting it all garbage, so that i could gain Christ
and become one with HIM.-- Philippians 3:7-9a