The night is so elusive it taunts me with sleeplessness. My eyes burn, my mouth is dry, and my senses become more aware. Lighting flashes outside my window reporting the raging storm. Thunder roll down the hallway. Still I find no sleep.
Now the words are hiding. Leaving me alone. Thoughts of you and what was say seem vacant. The last time we talked it ended in shouting. Talking over each other, we missed our cries. In our struggles we choke the life out of our relationship. Maybe this is why I can't sleep.
I rush to find some answers to the questions in my mind. Only to become more awake with the passing of time. I need to pay attention to the crying of my soul. Emptiness makes me so invisible. Still no sleep, I make deals with myself to find the world of dreams. I see the fingers pointing at me blaming me for all this mess. As I fade away, I still cannot find sleep. Suddenly, the world of sleep takes over. I once again drift into another nightmare. Will they ever stop? Each step within the dream makes me more transparent. Now all my sorrows are in plain view. Now everyone knows my secrets. Now I die in my mind and in my heart. Oh if I only I had you to guide me. But then I would not be real.
Now I see somebody lying on the ground. I check and he is dead. I think he looks familiar. Then I know who he is.. He's the one that stares back at me from the other side of the mirror. Do I really hate him so much that I waste my life inflecting pain upon him? Why must that be my job? Well I quit!
Weariness creeps over me once more. Sleep is knocking at my door. But for some reason I can't let him in. aaaaaaah!!!!
