What I am going to do to overcome a lack of self control? This very thought, at this point
seems hopeless. So this is why the priority that it holds, prevails any other obstacle.
Myself , I am the challenge. Overcoming a hurdle my size. This should be interesting.
I have thought about the way that I am changing, I idealize too much. I think and analyze
every thought to it's breaking point, and the thought expires with the effort I contributed
to waiting.
So what am I going to do? Change my scene. I have to change everything.
Wake up tomorrow another me, and tomorrow I'll begin living.
If I die before
I wake I'll have just been alive. Breathing until my breath is no more. Sad it seems
that I left so much undone.
Unfortunate so young would leave behind a son who is me,
and he is never wrong.
What am I going to do, that will grow in him, stay with him
when he's old, hear me pray with him, when I'm gone. God I'm sorry,
I chose wrong please believe me that I am sorry. Don't forgive me, come in to me. Make this all right.
Stay with me, I hear you pray for me. I want my life.
There are things I can do for myself, saying you can't means you won't.
Not forgiving yourself leads to guilt which is like a chronic depression. Are you
there, are you happy?
No she's hungry for light, starving for peace, raging inside. Pray for me the trials are
tests, confronting fears that I use to take pills to escape. Nothing is without temptation,
believe you are strong and you will be. The mind is not as fragile as the heart, but it is
easily convinced by those who conspire with the naughty minds eye. Fulfilling hidden
desires with fortified real life fantasy. The characters we play, in our own individual
worlds. The minds eye being the most powerful instrument. Imaginary is infinite
Happiness is the way. It's your fault you're unhappy. Accept, embrace, let go, make your
stand ,take your place. The world keeps on spinning can't stop it until it does
keep on moving/