Had not a thought
Gone with the troop
To the Shisha
Green leaves
How one hoped
They were herbal
To unlease the inner most
Poison extracted from the monster
Leaf
That only caused great strain
Nobody was around to see
You had no idea
How much neglect was there
I was so alone
I cried so hard
When I needed a friend
Nobody ever came
When I needed a cuddle
Daddy was in his grave
Had I wondered if he cremated over time
Mum on greenway
It was just too much
To have no emotional support
Through Foggy bitter tears I began to cut
It made me wonder why I couldn't stop
Or what feelings i was connecting with
Until one day I just had enough
Suicide raced my mind
Luckily God wasn't ready to see me Go
He appointed me a great gift
One night my sister cried in shock
Gave me the cuddles i was craving
The Kiss on my head i needed so much
So forever grateful I was to her
That I never stopped giving to her
As i loved her and her children my Goldmines
Lord helped mum through the bereavement
I was helped in her grief
So was my brother
Our faith in our Lord stronger
As we all connected together
To realize being there is better
Than being alone in the same home
In and out like strangers
I continued to write
NO MATTER HOW DARK IT MAY
BE ON A STARLESS NIGHT