I've lived my entire life long it seems
And never once I've felt that any knew..
The deepest feelings within me that are
And have been there since the day I grew..
Things that can easy render this strong man
To fall down upon his knees in sincere tears..
Hurts that I simply stored away deep within
They've been there smoldering all of my years..
Pain I never knew how to deal with at any time
That were way too hard in life to explain..
Things no matter what I could never change
Even if by chance I could go back once again..
Feelings that well could easily destroy me
If ever I was to allow them to have their say..
That could without any trouble blow my soul apart
If ever by chance they ever got to have their way..
I once or twice found myself far away on my own
And my heart simply burst into endless tears..
The dammed up sadnesses I've hidden within
That I've carried right through my very years..
I've never been with or knew another soul
That would in wildest dreams ever at all understand..
The pure hell I've buried deep within myself
That are soaked inside like the sea upon the sand..
Oh how I'd love to know one soul with the time
To even be interested in helping me come to terms..
With a heap of pain I might never release again
That like the hot coals of hell within that burns..
And If I myself could not face their freedom
How could I ever expect another to help with same..
Like acid rain from a midnight sun buried so well
That have tried to destroy me over and over again..
Their they are and there they'll stay within myself
Until the very one day that I do one day die..
And if or not even then they could hopefully rot
They'll either fade away or might just have me fry..
terrence michael sutton
copyright 2000