Broken, shattered
Beaten and bruised
Inside and out
Going back for affection came with a fist
Each order came fiery
Each meal was aggressiive spice
The love and passion was only good in bed
On the streets your hands were my handcuffs
Tightly gripping my palms a finger pointed inwards
Poking and proding each time an accusation of wandering eyes
My heart bled internally for freedom, but i loved you so hard
My feelings were always patient and i waited months at a time
To see you back home
Only to find cayenne pepper in my eyes
Only to find chilli powder in my intestines
Only to find my heart burning in cofusion
Desire and affection
I never knew my mind could cry for help
My heart was begging it to keep hush hush
Praying for a lifeline i couldn't stand losing you
I couldn't cope with the taunting
I could never cope with the cheating
Nor with the games you were playing
I was so young and so innocent
How could i keep letting you back into my life
Each taunt was sweetened with honey
Like butter wouldn't melt my heart
If fatigue clicked on it will be platinum
Lord save me from the hits
They just keep coming
All i do is keep loving
Its only ever noticed in the bedroom
You never cared to speak
Nor to give me the affection and communication
I so craved, but my heart loved you
When you was ice cream you was delicious
When you was chocolate you was irresistable
When you was funny you was incredible
When you was loving you were everything
Until this demon got a hold of you
I never wanted to pull the Plug
I never wanted to shave off Stan
I never wanted to wake up being second best
Next to a thin curvy woman with 7 kids
I never wanted to wake up finding s*xts
To several models i never knew existed
Bebo was my nightmare
Blue and white was even worse it hit on more than my space
I finally pulled the trigger and said goodbye