If I died would you cry?
If I died would you sigh?
Tear stained glass eyes
Mind filled with questions & lots of why's.
Would you say why? But she was so young!
Would you say she had a lot to live for?
Would you say she is a coward or why didn't she speak to me? Or would you say where were the signs?
Well perhaps I didn't tell you cause you all have such busy lives!
Let's not pretend you are not cognitively repressed. Brought up to bury feelings; thought I would make you feel depressed.
You will be fine, time heals all is a popular response but hey I'm not fine and I don't want time I just want to die!
Life is over rated with all its twists and turns.
Really who is that concerned! That my heart is crushed and burnt!
I don't need you pity or permission to say goodbye. My heart has been pulverized by my dream guy!
I can't see past this moment right now so if your emotionally stronger than me I can only say wow!
My emotions are my weakness which is why I give in. To end my life is not a win.
But hey my life is destined to end at some point so why not end it now.
The pills are calling me as the alcohol slips down.
The voice is my head says let's end that frown.
I have a romanticized view of falling asleep and the misery will be over; my sanity I will keep. No more questions of why! No more emotions twisted & mangled in a pathetic heap!
I'm sorry my loved ones, a coward I am not.
It's the bravest choice of all and it's all I feel that I have got!
Don't mourn me, I'm not sad as my tears are now gone. I will watch over each & every one of you to ensure you have fun.