Broken

Broken

Once again I’m feeling beaten down and alone
As I returned and open this door to an empty home
I have my friends and my family all around me
But yet I feel so far from thee
How can this be loneness and fear has once again taken control of me
Why must I come back to this familiar place of pain
I am so embarrassed and I feel so ashamed
I know this is not the plan you had for me when you called me by name
I thought that this one was different from the first and last
I thought he was to help erase the pain from my past
He promised you that he would love me
He promised you that he would never hurt me
So I ask again how this can’t be and why does this keep happening to me
You promised me you would never leave nor forsake me
So why can’t I feel you near me why won’t you just free me
Have I done something to anger thee
Are you not pleased with me
I am broken and not sure what to do
Please father I need to hear from you
I am not moving until I hear from you
My eyes are burning and blind from all the tears
And my body is frozen from uncertainty and fears
I’m broken and there are too many pieces to put back together
I trusted him when he promised me forever
I trusted him when he said he would be here even in the hard and most difficult all time
Lord I just need you to send me a sign
Because I feel like I am going out of my mind
There are too many pieces and the sharp edges are cutting my hands
Because once again I misplaced my trust and faith in man
My faith is strong but my heart is weak
My feet won’t move until I hear you speak
You promised me that all my prayers will be heard
So I am calling on you as I emerge myself in your word
I know you have counted my tear drops on my face and whipped them away
I know your love for me is here always
We all will have a season of trials and storms
How did something I that felt right go so wrong
I feel alone in this storm
I can’t hear you
Please I just don’t know what to do
I just want to feel close to you
I broke and shattered and there are just too many pieces
Please can you just speak to me