Where there's pleasure there'll be pain
 

So close I could feel her breath on my lips

So hot I thought I might do something silly

Like kiss her. Red faced I left the filing cabinet

Went back to my desk and spent the rest of

The afternoon head down, heart pounding

As I left the factory I saw her again at the

Gate, she turned and smiled, a lingering

Smile that lasted long into the night. A night

I spent drifting in and out of dreams and

Schemes and all it means to be in love with

A beautiful you and by dawn I was ready for

Work and whatever love might throw at me

Truth told, love threw more at me than I

Expected and 3 months later

When you go home tonight to tell him you

Don't love him, tell the kids the time has

Come for you to go, tell them life is sometimes

Cruel and complicated, I'll be waiting at the

Dark end of the road

Selfish love that sprang so freely into being

Wasn't perfect, but then love so rarely is

Came with family ready-made and ready

Waiting, like a chapter in a book that doesn't

Fit

The world I saw was through the prism of

Perfection, nothing like the hand of cards that

I've been dealt. Did I have the right to wreck a

Happy family? Looking back I should have

Looked before I leapt

What's done is done the hour has passed and

Gone forever. One child likes me whilst the other

Two do not. They see me as the man who hurt

Their father, but their mother sees me as the man

She wants

I can't argue with their faces drawn against me

Tables turned I think that I would feel the same

There's no accounting for the places love will take

You, no disguising where there's pleasure there'll

Be pain
 

© Joseph G Dawson
16/02/2018 – 19/03/2017