Letting go of what me and you had is hard.
It hurts because I am afraid to live without you.
I know I must let go but how.
How do I let go of being able to run to you when I am scared?
How do I let go of a safe haven?
How do I live for me again?
I must let go, so I will say good-bye.
I will care but as a friend I will care.
I know it is better for me in the long run but I don't see it now.
This is going to be a long process, but it is worth all the pain and suffering.
I hate pain and suffering but it is apart of letting go.
Every now and then I look at you and silently cry.
When I think of what happen between us tears fall from my eyes.
I miss the security, I miss the sense of belonging.
When I saw you with her, I cried.
I cried because you have moved on and I have not.
I am trying to move on but it is going slowly.
Tears falling on my pillows again.
I hate crying in my sleep especially when I am dreaming about you.
Part of my pillows is soaked because of you.
But I am trying to let go.
Oh! how this hurts.
It is for the best, right?
I know I should have not gotten to attached.
I knew, but it did not work.
It couldn't be helped.
I mean, those eyes and face and shoulders, how could I not get attached.
I knew better but I did anyway.
I am surprised this isn't tear stained.
I'm surprised I am not crying now.
Good-bye
Good-bye
Love you always but
Good-bye
