The emotional rock
I cried today, out in the busy streets of London
It was a windy day and tears were streaming down my face
And the runny nose and sniffling
Just another Englishman putting up with the weather
But my emotions were running wild
It was the day before mothers day
Except mothers day is everyday to me
Recently i have been having flashbacks of a past memory
I was a small boy, blonde haired and full of life
I went to live with a couple called Jenny and Graham
I only found out recently it was because my mum and dad split up
He had spent all the money we never had
And run up huge debts
I know now he was living another life
Hard to have both, with children and a wife
My mums parents sold their house to pay of his debts
This was going on whilst i sat under a tree with my Brother
Listening to Michael Jackson's Thriller album on his Walkman
I remember the comfort of these strangers
Soft words, and a gentle presence
As the years went on my dad did it again
This time there was no money to bail us out
I was at school, brother away, little brother at home
I lived on handouts from friends and free school meals
As everyone around me had everything they wanted
I had nothing, i went to college with a heart so full of sorrow
everyday i came home not knowing if i would be here tomorrow
Went to University, a working class warrior
We had bailiffs phone up, strangers asking for money
I was all set to live in a council estate on the top floor
Looking over London's scum of the earth
Mum meet Dave, and he helped us out
Sold everything he had to help mum
They got married, and they live like old Kings and Queens
With nothing i had come a long way
I have travelled the world twice
With money i saved for over two years
I have climbed life's ladder
With nothing but hard work and constant battles
But today, today this afternoon
I had memories, so many in one blast
About the past
A sick and clumsy child i was
Could not read or write or speak properly
Bad eyesight, tongue tied, mum took me to Dr to Dr
But despite all this i was always happy, smiling
I feel myself fill up now
At 16 i was found to be badly dyslexic
Not the stupid lazy child the teachers thought i was
Tears at the edge of my eyes whilst i write this
Wanting to stream down my face
I hear everyone around me say nice things about me
Amazing man, so warm, so kind, so loving and happy
And i am, although so many people have tried to hurt me
Inject poisons thoughts and hate into me
But i can not hate for long
I have been brought to know what's right and wrong
Only one person is to thank for this
Only one person has made me the person you like
The person i am today, has been created by a living Goddess
This person is my mother, my mum, someone who i love beyond love
And today, when i bought her a card
I realized material gifts mean nothing
for the emotions i have for my mum are priceless
For you are my soul and my heart, and my smile.
My emotional rock.
