It's been a year since you left my life
but I can't seem to get you off my mind.
It seems like it was just yesterday
the last time I heard your voice,
I still have it in my heart engraved
those last words that were said.
I remember when you called
you were going on a weekend trip with some friends.
You had me in your thoughts
but not for long because in the end
you said you would call when you got back
but that call never came.
I waited for weeks to hear from you
when I would call, you wouldn't pick up.
And as time went by I knew it was true
I realized with you I had fallen in love.
But I knew I would never hear from you again
I knew everything had come to an end.
And then my worst nightmare came true
You wrote to me and said,
You had found someone to be with
and that things would now be different
It wouldn't be the same between us,
now you had someone else to trust.
My heart was broken in two
my eyes began to cry
I didn't know what else to do
I felt as if my whole world had died.
My everything had crumbled down
for months all I had was a frown.
I was so hurt
that I felt like I didn't want to live.
I was so depressed
I just wanted my life to end.
Then when I told you how I felt
my tears just came and fell.
You couldn't believe it
I guess you never thought
I would ever feel that way,
that with you I'd fall in love
but it happened and I felt dumb,
of course I thought maybe you'd feel the same.
But all you could tell me
was these words I'll never forget;
"We both let our feelings go too far
when we both knew what the outcome would be."
I really didn't understand you in a way
but I thought maybe I would someday.
And when I told you
we shouldn't talk anymore
because it was hard for me to know
that you had someone else by your side.
For me it hurt too much
I knew I had to let go and say goodbye.
I knew it would be hard for us both
but for me so much more.
You only saw me as a friend
and to me you meant the world.
But I told you how I felt
and you respected and left it to an end.
After a few months, I regretted it
because I missed you so much.
So I wrote to you hoping you'd answer back.
You did a few months later
I was happy to know that you still thought of me,
but when I looked to see
what you wrote I didn't understand,
what did you mean?
This is what you wrote;
"Just trying to see if you got this turned back on."
Now I wonder did you try to call my cell phone?
But I guess I will never know
because that's the last of you I heard.
Now Christmas is about to pass
and I can't get you off my mind.
I knew what we had wouldn't have lasted
the memories I'm trying to leave behind.
And now next month will be harder for me
a whole year it will be,
I just hope wherever you are
that you're happy with her.
I hope you're with a woman
that loves you more than I ever will.
And that you just remember me
the way I will remember you always,
In my heart you will forever be.
You'll always be special
no matter how many years go by,
your memories will stay within me
and all the moments we shared
will stay in me till the day I die.