A New Woman
i'm not in love
Written at 17 years old
(Editing in process)
All the lies.
that was why.
Probably why i believed him.
Why i said yes when i knew the facts.
i'm so sick of what he calls love.
I don't care if it's been five stupid months.
I hate what he calls love.
he doesn't really care about me.
i don't deserve all of this.
And my kids will not deserve it either.
So i will leave him divorce is a neccessary why should i cry myself to sleep for the rest of my life.
why should i spend the last of your years hating you because of him and fail and stay intact without completing my dream to become a poet.
I can write so why waste this wonderful talent for that stupid thing he never gets enough of.
Yes it is not against religion for a man to marry four wives.
he is just playing games.
he's loving it.
he goes back home he's got a wife when he's here he has got me.
I am no toy.
he hurts me when he sqeezes me.
I can't be with him.
I'm not in love.
I lied to make you get off my back like when i faked a headache one time just one lie see i aint perfect
But u can see why i did and why u swear at me like i never treated him well.
Someday one day some way you'll realise the truth.
I will justify more when i got more time.
I can give you the story from a to z in the poem i gotta leave you, but right now it's about my happiness.
Not about the facts we only been married for months.
(Editing in process)
All the lies.
that was why.
Probably why i believed him.
Why i said yes when i knew the facts.
i'm so sick of what he calls love.
I don't care if it's been five stupid months.
I hate what he calls love.
he doesn't really care about me.
i don't deserve all of this.
And my kids will not deserve it either.
So i will leave him divorce is a neccessary why should i cry myself to sleep for the rest of my life.
why should i spend the last of your years hating you because of him and fail and stay intact without completing my dream to become a poet.
I can write so why waste this wonderful talent for that stupid thing he never gets enough of.
Yes it is not against religion for a man to marry four wives.
he is just playing games.
he's loving it.
he goes back home he's got a wife when he's here he has got me.
I am no toy.
he hurts me when he sqeezes me.
I can't be with him.
I'm not in love.
I lied to make you get off my back like when i faked a headache one time just one lie see i aint perfect
But u can see why i did and why u swear at me like i never treated him well.
Someday one day some way you'll realise the truth.
I will justify more when i got more time.
I can give you the story from a to z in the poem i gotta leave you, but right now it's about my happiness.
Not about the facts we only been married for months.
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i`m not in love
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