Do you know
Up until a year ago
It never occurred to me
To write my feelings down
'Cos they were hidden out of sight
My daily journal
The only thing I'd ever done
And even that wasn't much fun
My life was dead
The entries all the same
Wake up, walk the dog,
Eat and go to sleep
Enough to make angels weep!
My life was drab
And that was pretty sad
But only I was to blame
'Cos my life was daily boring
All the same!
So I started writing out my life
From childhood till
The days after I became a wife
Writing down stuff I needed to know
So when I'm old and grey
I'd have those memories to stay
For my memory was playing games with me
Playing hide and seek you see
I couldnt remember things I'd done
Times of laughter and times of fun
So I thought it best to write stuff down
Remembering then would be easier than a frown
But whilst in the process of writing out
I found memories from my younger years
Were pouring out in painful tears!
As I wrote more stuff came to the fore
Till at times those tears
Were dripping on the floor
A veritable puddle was at my feet
But I could do nothing but weep
Yet happy times too came back
Those in plenty I did not lack.
I typed out all my fears
I wrote them down
Over a period of three years
But they are nothing
Compared to what I have achieved
This last year has gone beyond dreams percieved
This year has just put me into first gear
Now I am revving
A hotrod ready to go
To scream up life's track
And find out what it is I lack.
So now I'm streaming,
My hair pulled back in the wind
All those pages of writing I have now binned
I have moved on from the girl I was
Becoming a woman I have grown
Planting more seeds
So I can reap what I have sown.
I still look back
And feel sad at things I've not done
But I can't change the past
There is nothing that I can do, so at last
I have changed my thinking
And now I have many precious memories
About me and you!
Jayc