I Am Not Alone

I must
shake this
feeling of being
all alone

The decisions
I am facing, my
mind needs to be in tone.

So much
is on my mind,
how do I sort this out?

Do I
have this
surgery now,
or wait, is my shout!

Do I
make the
move, closer
to my children,
I would be?

Do I
just stay
here and face
alone my reality?

What about
my ability
to work
and earn my pay?

I'd be
laid up one
more year, again,
in this way.

The
plastic joints
in my hands were
supposed to last ten
to fifteen years,

Now I'm
sitting here
asking, Lord what
do I do? through my tears.

All the
medication
I'm taking are
facing class action suit,

I'm stunned
in my silence, my
mind has gone into mute.

I know
as long as
I breathe I will
have battles I have
to fight,

But I feel
I'm losing strength,
at this time and holding on
with all of my might.

This illness
is not getting any
better as I have hoped it would,

There is
still inflammation
in my blood my doctor
shared, as he should.

I do
not know
why God is
allowing me once
again, to be in this place.

I do
know though,
He is for me and
all my anxiety, He helps
me to face.

I must
give Him
thanks in all things,
and bless myself in the
Lord once again,

I must
be still and
know He is God,
as He fights all my battles,
He does win.

Debra McGee Trammell
11-18-04
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
What a therapy it is
writing when I'm faced with
challenges.
That shell shocked
feeling
has left me.
Thank you Lord!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Philippians 4:6
"Be anxious for nothing,
but in everything by prayer
and supplication, with thanksgiving,
let your requests be made known to God."
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