Darkness comes over me like clouds of smoke. I lie
on my bed and hear only silence. Tears seep from
my eyes. Yesterday my heart died hearing them
fight. Each of them wanted their own way. No one
winning and only I am losing. I am confused and
don't know what to do. No one to trust, no one
to talk to. God, let me sleep the sleep of death.
Cast me into the pit if that is where I belong.
I have failed at all my earthly tries.
I scream as my soul is twisted. Crying as
I Spiro down. Have mercy on me God. Help
me stop these voices in my head. They
scream "what a failure you are." I want
to run, but from what? Why do I hate me
so much? I try to be good, but only find
laughter. All of my tools are broken and
lay scattered on the floor,and
I am tormented.
