This poem here is for my x-bf and my bf that I have now. At the time we were just friends.
I know this boy who I love, he's my heart and soul. Loved him so much, I cried a river when he let me go. I couldn't take the pain no more so I just turned away but with his words: lets be friends, I couldn't resist his hugs. He's still my baby, still my love, wished I had him back. Sometimes I feel as if it's my fault for letting the tables turn. I realize that it's all good for I have a new love. He's a charm and also sweet. I love his wonderful hugs. His smile it brightens up my day. My baby all handsome and neat. I write him letters, he writes me back, wished we were together. His name is Charlie, before it was Chris but love just spreads down the line. With C.M. by my side I don't gotta worry 'bout a thing. My love for C.S. may still feel the same but I can't let it get to me for deep down inside I found out where I needed to be. I took a long look at myself and you and realized never will we be. I want to cry but suck it up. Get on with my life. I try real hard to let you go but honey I just love you so. You got a gal, I understand but tell me: Why can't things be the same once again? You shattered my world, you broke my heart, I felt like you were lying. I let that all just slip on by and realized my world was dying. Like a baby just learning to walk, still on my knees crawling, I hid away from all the fear and hid it deep within. My love for you will never change but things will never be the same. You're killing me, you know it's true but you don't care, now do you? I'm glad we're friends but I wanted to be much more. You won my heart many a times and now you've won the war. I cried for you, almost died for you, couldn't handle it anymore. I broke down like a puzzle while I was left to be alone in a room so small. Felt like a mouse under the house on top of a 2 by 4. Almost got caught by the trap before someone shut the door. Boy, I was devoted to you, my love, it grew and grew. Pieces still lying on the floor, who would ever knew? I'm writing you this to say how I feel or felt before we were through. Now what should I do? I wait on Charlie like I waited once on you. Still waiting for you but no one cares. Time I must move on. Sorry it's so dog-gone long, it's time to say where I belong. I belong at home in my little world where no one even cares. Someone in this world still loves me, but never will I hear the words again. After a yr. and 8 months, on Aug. 31st, will be when you broke my heart and tears came running down. Baby I'll love you from here on after even though I like Charlie. You'll forever be in my heart but for sure now, I'm over you and that's no doubt. I feel all better inside. I finally told you how I felt, now I gotta go. So take your dreams and study them hard, you may see me again sometime. If you hear my name and you wake up, it's me trying to stay just friends. Don't get scared, go back to bed, turn out the lights, I won't bother you no more. One last time, my dear old friend don't let your heart get fooled. Hold on to the girl you're with. She needs you in her life like I once needed you. You destroyed me but now Charlie's all mine. Take your love and hold on to her tight. Never let her go like you once done me. Tell her you love her before it's too late. I'm leaving now before my heart breaks.
