Brittany's Poems
afraid to die, yet afraid to live
I'm living from moment to moment,
Not even from day to day
It feels as if this darkness
Will never go away.
I'm cold, so cold, inside my soul
I cannot feel the sun
There once was a point to my existance,
But now my race is run.
I came last of course, I always do
I never expected to win.
But it would have been nice to have had a chance
To avoid this state I'm in.
I know there's one sure way to end it
To cease to feel the pain
But I'm afraid that I'd still be a failure
And wake to face it all again.
I'm afraid to live, afraid to die,
I cannot make a choice.
My friends tell me to ‘Do something!'
But my fear has stilled my voice.
So I suppose I'll just have to continue
In this dark and joyless life
Until I get desperate enough to CHOOSE –
The Darkness or the Knife.
Not even from day to day
It feels as if this darkness
Will never go away.
I'm cold, so cold, inside my soul
I cannot feel the sun
There once was a point to my existance,
But now my race is run.
I came last of course, I always do
I never expected to win.
But it would have been nice to have had a chance
To avoid this state I'm in.
I know there's one sure way to end it
To cease to feel the pain
But I'm afraid that I'd still be a failure
And wake to face it all again.
I'm afraid to live, afraid to die,
I cannot make a choice.
My friends tell me to ‘Do something!'
But my fear has stilled my voice.
So I suppose I'll just have to continue
In this dark and joyless life
Until I get desperate enough to CHOOSE –
The Darkness or the Knife.
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afraid to die, yet afraid to live
afraid to die, yet afraid to live
