M's Poetry
Nightmare of Reality
(dedicated to my best friend Rob, may you heal one day my friend and I love you no matter what)
Nightmare of Reality
I just didn't know
and God I am so sorry
I know you can't hardly process
how they beat you so black and blue
how they violated your inner being
no wonder you was so mad, so long
you didn't know how to act
or how to carry on
words I form are just not enough
tears you have cried and will cry
just feels these floodgates up
when you finally told me
all I could do was cry like a baby
and I just can't imagine what it must feel like
to be living in your shoes
with this secret you held
in the darkness you fell
to three unknown men who tore your clothes
raped you for hours
black became the room
as you finally woke dazed and confused
you know it's a miracle to be alive
but you just don't care
cuz your life will never be the same
and all the anger
can't retract the violation
you know what finally happened
piecing it together from flashbacks
cuz even though you want to love
someone's touch still makes you flinch
in your mind you still feel not here
your eyes just are not the same
cuz try as you might
you are still stuck in that one horrible night
when you lie down to try and sleep
you still can't escape
cuz here they are again
in your nightmares......
2005@ Copyright by Megan Bishop
Nightmare of Reality
I just didn't know
and God I am so sorry
I know you can't hardly process
how they beat you so black and blue
how they violated your inner being
no wonder you was so mad, so long
you didn't know how to act
or how to carry on
words I form are just not enough
tears you have cried and will cry
just feels these floodgates up
when you finally told me
all I could do was cry like a baby
and I just can't imagine what it must feel like
to be living in your shoes
with this secret you held
in the darkness you fell
to three unknown men who tore your clothes
raped you for hours
black became the room
as you finally woke dazed and confused
you know it's a miracle to be alive
but you just don't care
cuz your life will never be the same
and all the anger
can't retract the violation
you know what finally happened
piecing it together from flashbacks
cuz even though you want to love
someone's touch still makes you flinch
in your mind you still feel not here
your eyes just are not the same
cuz try as you might
you are still stuck in that one horrible night
when you lie down to try and sleep
you still can't escape
cuz here they are again
in your nightmares......
2005@ Copyright by Megan Bishop
