Climb the highest mountain, punch the face of god
Nameless reasons for you
Virus strands,
Dead skin cells,
A couple threads of hair,
And some drops of blood,
Those are the things I think of
When I want to remember you.
I find myself desiring to remember you a lot.
Mono,
Bongs,
Theft,
And a mélange of bad cars,
That's the essence I feel
When I get really into thinking of you.
I wonder how it's all changed; if it's all changed.
I remember your jail time,
I remember your addictions,
I remember the abuse,
And all the times you flipped me off
When you drove past me.
Sometimes I'm not sure of the hurt,
I don't know why I loved you,
I don't know why you couldn't love me back.
I lacked adequate evidence to support any reasoning.
I just wanted someone to be with, didn't you want the same?
Now when I see you,
A littler paler,
Hood over your head,
That look in your eyes,
I wish I were back in high school
Adoring you, dreaming of those eyes.
Did you ever cry for nameless reasons?
Or were we both too stoned to remember?
I didn't deal well with missed attractions. Didn't you?
Bad cars,
Bad ideas,
Bad morals,
Bad thoughts.
You felt so good to think about.
I think I bore the brunt of this “bond,”
I subjected myself to useless teasing.
You never even saw me as a person.
You just saw me.
I switched schools,
Rearranged my life,
Did illegal things,
Defied authority,
Showed up in odd places,
Spent time with your brother,
Became closer to your family,
Enhanced my appearance,
Wrote poems,
Wrote stories,
Created fantasies,
Prayed,
Started smoking again,
Drew pictures,
Did homework,
Lied,
Encouraged your alibi's,
Cried,
Dreamt reasons,
And generally watched out
For you.
October 6, 2005
Suge
Dead skin cells,
A couple threads of hair,
And some drops of blood,
Those are the things I think of
When I want to remember you.
I find myself desiring to remember you a lot.
Mono,
Bongs,
Theft,
And a mélange of bad cars,
That's the essence I feel
When I get really into thinking of you.
I wonder how it's all changed; if it's all changed.
I remember your jail time,
I remember your addictions,
I remember the abuse,
And all the times you flipped me off
When you drove past me.
Sometimes I'm not sure of the hurt,
I don't know why I loved you,
I don't know why you couldn't love me back.
I lacked adequate evidence to support any reasoning.
I just wanted someone to be with, didn't you want the same?
Now when I see you,
A littler paler,
Hood over your head,
That look in your eyes,
I wish I were back in high school
Adoring you, dreaming of those eyes.
Did you ever cry for nameless reasons?
Or were we both too stoned to remember?
I didn't deal well with missed attractions. Didn't you?
Bad cars,
Bad ideas,
Bad morals,
Bad thoughts.
You felt so good to think about.
I think I bore the brunt of this “bond,”
I subjected myself to useless teasing.
You never even saw me as a person.
You just saw me.
I switched schools,
Rearranged my life,
Did illegal things,
Defied authority,
Showed up in odd places,
Spent time with your brother,
Became closer to your family,
Enhanced my appearance,
Wrote poems,
Wrote stories,
Created fantasies,
Prayed,
Started smoking again,
Drew pictures,
Did homework,
Lied,
Encouraged your alibi's,
Cried,
Dreamt reasons,
And generally watched out
For you.
October 6, 2005
Suge
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