I have so many things to say to you.
First, I miss you.
I'm disappointed that we couldn't just kick it for a while longer.
I find myself thinking of you often.
Missing our conversations.
The clock proclaims the time
when you should be calling me
But nothing…
Second,
Why you do me like that? Just up and leave.
I told you something about me that I never told anyone.
Something deep and personal
I was sweating and nervous to tell you, first place
You told me that I could trust you.
That you would never disappear.
Then you left…
One thing I can't forgive…
That you didn't even consider how I would feel
you told me that we could be, no longer
Spontaneously...
No emotion in your words I could sense
vacant but occupied
Shock controlled me to say "okay"
My pride, I kept.
Deep down, I wondered.
No explanation came except your wanting to be a "better" man…
I thought that was what I helped you to do,
At least that's what you said.
So now,
Were all your words lies?
Can I believe all you wanted was the best for me?
Why did you say that you would be with me eternally?
Why introduce me to all your friends?
Why say that you would do me better then him?
and then,
Turn around and injure me?
just the same..
I wanted you to know how I felt about the situation
Even though time is past
And I have deleted every contact for you
I still find myself thinking over and over again
Of all the promises broken said.