The more i stare at this piece of paper.
The more i am gonna pay for her.
I can't get out of this pain and stress.
When will the day of these words get to my head and destress.
I need the ink to stop dotting and write a word to make a sentence.
Why did all of this have to be for her maintainace.
What about me.
How can i live like this nervously breaking down i just can't be.
i only write today saying what i can't feel.
Can i really feel this is this real.
I don't know i need to know i wanna know, but who shall i be.
I can't be me.
I don't want to be my friend.
I don't wanna follow a trend.
I don't need to say i don't need nobody coz i do.
I can't go through.
I need somebody and all i got is never enough where shall i hide.
I can't beat the tide.
The ride is the bumpiest ride.
I can't be bothered to stride.
So i wait until my pen writes me a word so i can tell them what i feel.
How i feel to be laboured in all this pain and all these jobs my body just can't handle at once.
My brain can't rest for peace not just an ounce.
I just wanna snap, but then you'll kill me coz it accumulates so big and scary and i frighten you to death and hurt myself.
I sit and stare at my shelf trying to look for inspiration.
All i can do is drift away to a fake illusion.
Ironically nobody cares what i write to them.
I got a lesson to learn and life is hard so i gotta get used to the machine making a hem.
Sister to brother
Do not leave.
You got it all up your sleeve.
I've been a fool.
Do not throw you life away 11 years of school.
Stay with your mother.
Look after one another.
You're the man of the house.
I love you, your the best brother and mommy needs her spouse.
I am sorry i know you hate me.
Why can't you see i love you i know i drive you mad and anger you until i make you flee.
What's taking us so long to grow out of those old times and forever see we are until death does us part.
You take care of me and me for you this is the way to make a great piece of art.
I am telling you in my poem for you.
I am sorry for all i put you through, but from a sister to a younger brother can you please forgive your older sister she's trying too hard to change her old ways for you.
These boots are made for walking
These boots are made for walking.
So you can talk the talk...
But you don't walk the walk.
So talk the talk and don't walk the walk.
Stop all this talk no action after you talk.
So you can say what you want...
Air your thoughts, but you can't walk.
Don't walk the mile in my shoes...
i will walk so far all you can do is talk.
Can you please walk the walk.
Just quit the rubbish talk you talk.
These boots are made for walking...
Everybody knows that i'll walk allover you.
They know i can, but i wait for you.
Would you please walk the walk.
Just stop the talk the talk.
One Day
One day so much, others so less.
Why not the same.
Every time.
The more you get that's why you expect to get it more.
When it all stops you got to be hurt simply that's for sure.
So quit with the snaps give me less I'll fantasize more.
I'll no I'll be not getting it for sure.
So why should i beg a lifetime for.
I know I'll never be getting no where.
so quit the swear.
So I'll have to go with what i got to wear.
A fake smile and a life I'll never come to understand.
BIG BIG THING
I'm a big big girl and i just don't understand.
When i try to say what i don't need to bottle things i can't stand.
Then the cork goes loose upon the shadows; then you say silly things to me.
I already know what you need to say thats why i said spray paint the words and numbers allover for all to see.
I already know that i am a big big girl and i do not need to be reminded every day thats why i wish to flee.
Don't want to stay here and i don't wish to live or be.
It's all you who makes the blood dribble down my wrists in my mind.
I just need some peace before i really hurt me i don't need the reminder.
I just need some sanctuary to get on with my life there is so much you want me to do.
I can't be how you want me to be i think all i can do is all i can do.
Why not just thank god i do somethings you ask.
Some people do not even do a single task.
LOVE ME LIKE I LOVE YOU
"I remember all the feelings couldn't remember why i didn't see it before.
You made me look at you in a way i never thought i would for sure.
Now I'm crying for you.
There is nobody to wipe away my tears, it's so cold and my tears soaked me and my eyes are frozen.
Only you can help me you can warm me up and help defrost me.
I just can't let you go.
I love you... i like you like mad my feelings stir up like a mad machine.
I can' think or breathe all i want is you all i can think of is you all i want is you all i need is you.
Nobody can ever pull me through.
I don't know what's going on, but i know she ain't making you happy if you was i really could tell i feel for you because things ain't going too well for me too... so please give me a chance.
Do i not deserve this single chance.
AM i not worth a second thought.
Think inside yourself do as your heart commands and listen to nobody they will never be around to pick up the pieces then you sit and cry over split milk.
Then before you know it no hope is for, but to suffer we can help each other.
We can fight for one another!
There is hope i know it you know it.
You know you want me!
Why be so unsure if i can guarantee you a lifetime of love like you've never seen before.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
How can i let you leave this way.
Without you I'm nothing.
I remember every memory!
From beginning to the end!
It's you i loved truly.
Forget the others they can all survive.
We need each other.
I will not stop until i got you.
I need you here with me you know I'll never stop until I've got you.
So why will you give up.
I don't care who your with because I'll pray until it's me.
I'm on the steeps with mine so who even knows if a return ticket will work out i just want you...
If you think you're not good enough i think you're perfect.
Every single thing you do and every breath you take drives me crazy!
What the hell can i do.
You can run, but you can't hide from your real feelings.
Inside you know what you want!!!
You know it's me, so will you please never give up on me.
A little patience goes a long way.
I want you.
I won't ever stop i want you i love you!
Every single move you makes stays in my mind and i sit and watch each scene in slow mo.
You drive me crazy up the wall.
I'm madly obsessed you gotta say its sweat...
Who the hell will do that got got to give me a chance.
I'll make you the happiest boy alive please please please give me that chance.
I'm a slave for you I'll five you love like you've never experienced before in your life like you never felt and it will be so pure and so true.
I'll give you promises i can keep, I'll give you honesty and justice and power.
We can get through the tough times, we can survive the survival of the fittest.
By the power of all the stars above me and my imagination I'll love you with more than the whole of my all kind heart.
Can't you forget the things i may have said sorry for the humiliation i can't stand and won't stand losing you.
We need more time and i know i may have made a few mistakes tell me why you may wanna give up.
It's too much for me to take, I LOVE YOU!
So tell me why I'm swimming against tides of oceans and rivers i am not even used to?
Tell me why I'm praying and wishing and longing and trying to help you.
I pray for our lifelines i won't stand losing you.
I can't cope losing you i want you i believe in you i wish for you i long for you please forget the things i said i never meant to humiliate you.
I didn't ever mean to make you feel bad.
Never meant to upset you, hated to see your face the way i did and do each day dying for that smile that melts me away like mad.
Forgive me for staring and for the things.
So tell me what to say!
I'll never let you walk away!
I'll never let you leave.
What you'll be giving into i can't explain only you will know.
I can't go through with regretting i don't want you to regret either,
That feeling may stay a lifetime and i want you for that long.
Except the circumstances need to change so you and i can be.
I feel you slipping through my fingers.
Killer whales eat away my flesh and sharks bite through my heart now i think I'm losing you.
I really really long for you to read this just so you know!
I hope you know it's for you... you should know!
I can't stop expressing how much i love you!
Out of a billion daisies you'd be the one I'd pick.
Out of a billion stars it's you who'd shine the hardest.
Out of a trillion smiles yours will light my universe.
Out of a gillion hearts yours is the only one that can make me feel welcomed and loved very much.
You're the one I'd love to kiss in the rain.
The softest drops of water upon our lips.
The moonlight torch the bushes fine greenery the delight of star gazing when we kneel down to lay on the wet grass.
When we walk away...
All i do is cry when my desires are just fantasies!
Please tell me why?
Please tell me you feel the same way too.
I love you!
Boy i am obsessesd get me out of my misery"!
