life collapses empty and abandoned
at my bare feet,
my hands clinched in crimson from
the torment of ringing them
from exasperated frustration,
a solitary sentence left to fester
with the raging of emotion,
words become a refusal,
a means to resolve
a resolution is not within
the playing hand held,
instead the guilt and shame
falls building boulders across my shoulders,
the single thought continues
to drift through a damaged soul,
being tugged and torn at the extremities,
carry the load alone with a reliance on self,
instead share and communicate, trust and love
for a burden is less to bare when shared,
keep constantly in mind everyone has situations
far worse than yours,
keep the peace from the envy that is first born and only girl
tears fall to the dented pine floor for answers
to gather in a wretched heart,
to sooth the third degree burn of pain,
every avenue walked leaves another wound,
even the help that is sought is classified
as a wrong doing on the internal part,
stubborn and independent survival modes,
learned with the crack of a belt,
the PH. D. degree won't change in half
a dozen sessions what years built
with steel and cement,
the non-understanding remains
with the puddle of tears that,
love is forbidden and these things
are all the result of me.
