My heart is heavy today, too many thoughts
My mind racing, thinking of all sorts,
I try to still it but it has its own way,
Thinking things, best forgotten, I pray.
I`d like to take to my bed and just cry,
I`d ask myself the classic question of `why`?
Curl myself up tight in a ball to squeeze out the pain
My tears will just add to the falling rain.
Why do I torture myself in this way?
The clocks can`t go back, pray though I may,
Why couldn`t things have been different for us?
I should look ahead and try to focus.
Still, my mind will always pull me back
Must try to get myself back on track,
I can`t change the past no matter how I try,
Nothing will alter no matter how much I cry.
What has gone before is nothing but history,
But what the future holds is a mystery,
It can`t be any more painful than the past,
Maybe I will find love and peace at last.
