So Small
So small, so quiet and oh so shy
Not a day went past that I wondered why
I was not clever, as you wanted me to be
Just a disappointment
I hated me
Because I hurt you for being so sad
I would cry as you shouted because I was bad
I tried to be good but seemed not to know
How hard I did try, how I wanted to show
I wanted to please you, there was never a doubt
A useless failure that's what I was about
I should have known to keep out of your way
When you were angry at the end of the day
When I was told to stand before you
I shook through and through
As I stood in your stare as you yelled at me
I was not the girl you expected me to be
Why was I so stupid? Why didn't I know?
How not to annoy you, I tried not to show
The fear that I felt when alone with you
And how hurt I was when they said I wasn't true
I was the little girl who lied
The 4 year old who cried and cried
As I heard the rows all caused by me
I was so bad yet I couldn't see
I should have stayed quiet, never again
Should I talk of my hurt or talk of my pain?
As years went by I learned to become
They girl that you needed, I become the one
Looking after her parents the best that she could
She no longer mattered, this way she should
Have always been but she had to learn
Her wants, her needs were not of concern
In her silence, she stayed as they wanted her to
Never complaining, but was this true
Was she so wrong to ask her parents above?
As their child, did she not deserve to be loved?
© TRIZIA2006
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