my tortured soul
burning
bleeding
memories fill my mind
i jerk awake
screaming
shaking
no daddy
please daddy
im a good girl daddy
but does it stop you?
you invade my thoughts
consume my mind
your grasp on me extends time
and distance
i can still feel your hot breath
on my neck
your hands
rubbing my leg
under the table
as we eat dinner
she smiles at our guests
pretends she doesnt know
but she does
i can still feel ur hands
slowly pulling down my pajamas
as i try to resist
then it starts
the louder i whimper
the more you make it hurt
my pain extends physical boundaries
i ask you
why daddy?
im sorry daddy
i'll be good daddy
promise
you only laugh
and continue
your touching
until i finally slip away
into unconciousness
i take myself away
dreams overtake reality
timing is nothing
control is lost
no longer am i me
i belong to you
no daddy
please daddy
i whimper softly
as i feel
finally
the dreaded moment
painful penetration
