When i am losing myself in dreams that don't exsist.
Trying to be something i can't be without pain, but they try to change me and insist...
Its gonna work and within time the words that are said and the things that he does all the time will change when he sees i know all the things from effort.
Except my life can't be lost because one thing to get back i'll never afford.
I can't get it back because if i lost me i've lost everything and come empty just like i came into this world with only mom and dad.
I would lose everything i had ever had.
I learned that i can trust myself and him and trust God that wrote us this love that things will change He is testing us faithfully and how much we trust God.
I don't have to be the same way as them at all and life can come in such a different range.
All i have to do is arrange.
If i want something i learned to ask and learned him to appriciate and not take everything and esspecially I for granted.
Though i wished so long for this change looks like my wish is finally granted.
I can hear the sparks of joy in my heart like fire.
I can leave everything in life in the past.
I am gonna make the future shine and make myself this way and make it all last.
God is helping me with his perfect guidance and testing i know this will be for life.
In his hands i trust and i leave it all in his hands...
Since i trusted God fully i realized nothing goes wrong.
Yeah things aren't perfect, but we're tested...
This life is a big step...
We can slip up and have to climb up again except in the next life we all stand before God and if we can't work out simple problems...
This is testing us to be prepared for the day of judgement and i am so glad to have such a beautiful Lord who did all this for us.
