My life has been unequal.
The scales weighted incorrectly.
There is no balance...
Works done, Success unmerited.
The scale still weighs on the trials side of the pendulum
Seeking knowledge of this, The reasons why?!
Am I not worthy?! My heart seems to be just.
My thoughts though betray my affiliations and decisions.
Why does it go wrong?!
So close am I to pride in myself.
Yet farther am I from "Bliss".
God has mad Game....
Give a little, take a lot,see what you will do.
Persevere, new life's near, wait/see what's in store for you
Patience is my weakness 4real....
Appreciation is the victim of my desire.
I give freely, yet have not received the riches from my willingness
The backs of heads & asses I have been given for my charity.
The soils of misunderstanding and misjudgment of character
I am one...
Surely I have shown strength.
But at what cost?!
The fire burns in me like a white flame.
I hold on tight....
Withdrawn into myself I go in remembrance of bad decisions.
Time is against me,Yet I know that this time.
I will be patient.
I will appreciate.
I will survive.
I will have balance.
To love is a state of perceived emotion....
The only true love is that which comes natural.
In some I find that there is none...
In some I find "conditions".
Untrue love are these things and no burden of oneself can change
what is not natural.
This Time I will seek and celebrate that which is natural.
God intended humanity and emotion,
Embodied in me, from me, and reciprocated.
I have worked.
I have suffered.
I still long.
I will work for this natural state in patient thoughts.
No one will turn their backs to me in true love and devotion.
I seek not the immediate perceived emotion....
But that which is real..natural.... to achieve