A New Woman - Why does it always rain on me (goodbye my love)

I am not wet physically just over filled
There is a cloud thats over filled
Waiting to drain
The thunder is shaking ready for the rain
The lightening ready to strike left from right
It appears grey dark right over my head
As i lay on my bed, warm and cosy my mind is asleep still i cannot close my eyes tight
I know whats wrong there is no way to put this right
If anything does happen i can blame half myself coz people saying i am in the wrong, but what about the way he treats me
This aint a man who wants a lady
The vows to God and family
He said them, but did he mean them really...
Honestly
I do not know now the emotion is draining
Its all raining
Why does everything rain on me
I leave it until its too late
The fish have got the bait
Its now too late
No escaping now and if he hurts from my decision what else can i do shall i die from a nervous breakdown or mental depression
This feeling is not opression
I just cannot cope being with him i keep saying i love him
Except i am being dim
Nothing is worth staying for i tried for God coz only GOD is worthy of my pain
Worthy of all that happens and i am sorry for the pain i may have to say goodbye oh God i hope nobody goes insane
Satan will be near
Except never shall we fear
People forget its all written down
I just want my cloud to drain so i can breathe and not drown
Not no more go around with this frown
Why does my guilt always rain on me
I have no reason too as i tried to be the best i can be
God knows i tried from the age of seventeen
Until i am twenty and out of my teens
Three whole years of marriage i commited too
I have followed all the way through
All for you
All you did was made me cry
I couldn't let go, but now i just did, but you can never say i didn't try
So much things left unsaid coz you don't deserve the world to know and i don't want nobody to know our secret except you're forgiven for once and for all
If we can work this out, but i made up my mind you took advantage and thought a game could go on forever
Except there is only so long a feather can float on air i hoped it will last forever
I gave so many chances and you never bothered to change
Then we worked it through all the outrage
Then you went and took it centerstage
So i am so sorry i cannot take it no more
I am too sensitive to keep my heart an open door
Now me and you shall be no more
I am not a bad person i just need to be honest and this is so sure
This Love wasn't as pure as i thought pure was pure
It was our destiny you were not the right one...