I'm wondering what the plan is?
You know, cos He gave me another tumour!
I think I know the answer to that!
He wants to give me some more humour!
So I am trying to keep my head on,
And stay as focused as I can,
Cos at the end of the day, I have no choice,
And I guess it's another one of Gods plan!
But ya know, I wish for once,
That He would cut me some slack!
Cos I have to say it here and now,
The walls against my back!
The worst of it is, and oh God help me,
They cannot put me to sleep,
Because the risk is so very great,
So my fear is beginning to rage and reap!
I will have another hole left there,
Like the ones from the other tumours,
And trust me, it isn't that nice a thing!
No matter all of the rumours!
It's pretty harsh and really hard just now,
To get through the day and night!
Well blimey are we surprised?
I've had an awful, terrible fright!
So they have to remove it from inside the mouth,
But because the jaw was all smashed up you see!
They have to keep me awake for that!
Oh woe is my never-ending, flowing cup and me!
Asleep they can't know if they damage it,
And since that took 8 and a half hours to fix!
They really can't afford to mess it up!
Oh but I am feeling all betwixt!!
So I am writing out my therapy,
To enable to help me through this plight!
And to ask of God, once again,
To get me through each night…
Cos I am floundering, yep, I really am!
In a raging sea of a thousand tears;
I need some help to help me cope!
With all these millions of awful fears!
So meanwhile I will have to write it out!
And get my humour once more to the fore!
Cos I have to be positive and focus…
Or else I will end up in a heap on the floor!
Like a quivering jelly, oh dear me!
That isn't a very good idea!
So I better get my head sorted fast!
And get positive and lose the fear!