A New Woman - A point of no return (I'll be missing you)

At 13 saw you for the first time...
You gotta have two grandparents
As you gotta have two parents
Just enjoyed my time...
Had so much fun i remember my step grandmother
Now i got another
Yet unrelated
Yet you felt related
It felt like if i cut open my wrist the blood would look different, but it would feel the same
Some people thought my theory was lame
Yet this is how much you meant to me
How much love and caring you gave to thee
What a time we had as we
It was me and you and you and me
It was so wonderful
Until i was 14 and that great celebration was thrown it was beautiful
Then i had to say Goodbye and it was dreadful

Came back in late 05
There was a kind of fued you'd fear that a member may use a knife
Not really, but it sure felt this way
So i kind of kept away
Hoping you see you
I can't blame the fued i should have came through
Through anything for you
I feel so guilty
As today
I find you're no longer here
I was waiting to come and see you i could have seen you if he'd taken me now the sin i fear
You must have been missing me so bad and i didn't see you
Does this make me evil coz i sure feel this i may be repairing a computor i been crying so hard
I never expected to feel so bard
The fued was so hard
I really feared fire
So playing with fire
Just made a bigger fire
Fighting fire with fire
Is a call of 999
I hope i get a sign
I hope i am forgiven too
By God and you
xxx
I loved the times they were the best of my life
You're the best person ever and you were the best mother i could know and the best wife
I hope you have had the best life
I hope its the best next life too
I hope all your Good deeds get you through
You been the best person ever and i really appriciate all you done for me
Now i will let open the treasure box and leave you in the bottom of my heart where i shall love thee...
Forever
And
Ever