Written in a period of two years from 1998 to 2000
From 12 years old until 14 years old
Its a damn well cold nipping
Blood freezing night
Raining banging on the roofs
The windows the doors
Wind blowing so hard
The draft over cooling the radiators
No use to leave on
I don't deserve the warmth
I feel selfish
For holding onto
Evil thoughts
I couldn't forgive myself
Until one told me
I got weak faith
I need to believe in God
Be stronger
Don't try to take my life
Only God can
This is a major sin
I pleaded insanity
Why is everything so confusing
Maybe i'm just out of my mind
WHY WOULD I BE THINKING THIS WOULD BE THE END
The wise mouth echoed sounds
God is with you
All the way through this
Then it all became clear
I need God
I will never need anyone, but Him
The Al-mighty
He saved me through this
I got through it all
I realized it all became
Crystal
If i repent
Its the end of the story
No going back
I can read it again
And learn from it
God has forgiven me
He is the most merciful
And most severe in punishment