Everything i attemp
You have your silly big headed novol of opinion
That you can talk for England with
I just don't wanna hear it any longer
Because you seem to drill things so hard in your head
If i fail again
You'll mention the past on top of everything else
Instead of just pretending you're proud of me and that its ok you'll do better next time
I don't care if you think this is encouragement
To me this is torture
My veins closing in on my heart
The blood overflowing in absolute heat
I'm drowning in absolute boils
I try to hold back my anger so i don't hurt nobody
But can you see all the pain i am closing to close my violence
You don't see how hard i try
So badly i cry coz it keeps going round and round in my whole body
If i loved somebody again and made a mistake you'll bring up my ex on top of all the pain i am closing down
Can't you see you're killing me painfully and slowly
I don't hate you, but one day i am so afraid i will
Its one of my biggest fears of never being forgiven by my Lord
Coz you have to and i know you're not very forgiving at all
All i feel from you is hatred and hopelessness
Coz i feel i will never do anything right
Everything goes wrong when you're around
For some kind of reason i close in my patience and my pain
Sometimes i'm a gun
i can fire, but i don't mean it
But you don't exactly make it easy with the mean and horrible things you say to me
You may not see how cruel, sadistic and evil you really are
You may not even realize, but you have to coz at one time i wanted to kill myself because of you
But For Allah's sake i didn't
Coz its not worth going to Hell for you
