I don't think I can do this.
I have tried but it's too hard.
Living threw each day as if nothing is wrong,
As if I don't care,
But I do.
Each day
Smiling,
Laughing,
Doing my homework,
Saying hello to people in the hall,
Pretending I'm fine.
BUT IT IS ALL ONLY A MASK!
I'm angry but I not sure at whom exactly.
At people for not seeing my pain?
At my father for doing this?
NO!
Maybe at myself?
But for what?
I don't know,
I just know I miss you,
My guardian angel.
I miss you,
Those three words, just like
I love you
Do not even begin to cover the feelings
Hiding deep within my existence.
It is much more then simply I miss you.
I miss
The connection our souls have when we are together
The safeness, love, protection, only found with you
How you look at me
The way only you can cheer me up
How your voice sounds
The sound of your laugh
The taste of your kiss
And how it sends shivers up my spine,
Every time.
I miss you
It hurts.
My soul is pining for you and your kiss.
For you are not only
My love and my soul mate,
You are my best friend.
I miss you.