Torn From the Pages of My Heart
Selfish, Lying Heart
I said I love you...
As the tides love the shore,
Till the waves come no more.
You'd always have me...
To the core.
I told you...
I'd take your weight
in my chest,
Bear it in my weakness.
I'd throw my complaints
to the sea crests.
But I'm selfish, and a coward
The words I said rolled backwards
Turned to lies, my disguise
Everything they sympathize
For I said I love you
As the waves come to shore
Till the tides rise no more
My heart... brimmed with currents at war
I said I'd bear your weight
In my weakness
The way sands do.
If I fall to pieces, still...
I would leave my heart
clinging to you
I'd hold on, gentle as could be
My love is bright, I said,
My love is eternity!
Then your voice ceased to
Beckon me to the shore
Your chest rose and fell no more
Now... you're embedded in my core
Molded to my being
More than ever before.
But I'm a liar, a selfish liar
My love bent, my heart mired
Now I'm paying in chains
Gleaming charcoal darkness in my eyes
Swallowed dry... peace and innocence
Still the waves come to the shore
The tides that rose, they still do
I let them purge this selfish, lying heart
See my scars? See their marks?
Yet still I'd stand at fault
So bathe them all in blame, my selfish art
Within the sounding walls
of this lying heart
The truth, where the waves start
Sealed tight, yet not so far
My regret, Pa, is that I'm not...
I'm not... right where you are
As the tides love the shore,
Till the waves come no more.
You'd always have me...
To the core.
I told you...
I'd take your weight
in my chest,
Bear it in my weakness.
I'd throw my complaints
to the sea crests.
But I'm selfish, and a coward
The words I said rolled backwards
Turned to lies, my disguise
Everything they sympathize
For I said I love you
As the waves come to shore
Till the tides rise no more
My heart... brimmed with currents at war
I said I'd bear your weight
In my weakness
The way sands do.
If I fall to pieces, still...
I would leave my heart
clinging to you
I'd hold on, gentle as could be
My love is bright, I said,
My love is eternity!
Then your voice ceased to
Beckon me to the shore
Your chest rose and fell no more
Now... you're embedded in my core
Molded to my being
More than ever before.
But I'm a liar, a selfish liar
My love bent, my heart mired
Now I'm paying in chains
Gleaming charcoal darkness in my eyes
Swallowed dry... peace and innocence
Still the waves come to the shore
The tides that rose, they still do
I let them purge this selfish, lying heart
See my scars? See their marks?
Yet still I'd stand at fault
So bathe them all in blame, my selfish art
Within the sounding walls
of this lying heart
The truth, where the waves start
Sealed tight, yet not so far
My regret, Pa, is that I'm not...
I'm not... right where you are
