Torn From the Pages of My Heart
When I Choose to Forget
I'm a bottle of sand on a buoy in a rocking sea
I keep that part of me secured, I think
Keep the lid tight on the rim to separate me
The wind blows, and the wind howls
I teeter, holding on with a prayer
The fight goes on, it seems... eternity
This part of me once drenched in lies, unseeing
Has died a thousand deaths, picked itself up
from every fall, worked with what was left
I believed, I lost. Now disbelief unbound
I've clammed up, the damage is done
I'm flailing, out of sight, in a depth no one can know
I'm on a buoy afloat, muffled cry lost in my mind
Don't urge me to take a step, I'll make my time
If I have to count pebbles in the sand
I'll leave with regret in my eyes. If that's all I have,
You gave it to me. I don't regret that love of once
upon a time. My regret is you, my regret is me.
I'll be strong. I'll forgive, I'll forget. If the only way
to do that is to accept. And you won't be able to
make me remember... when I choose to forget.
I keep that part of me secured, I think
Keep the lid tight on the rim to separate me
The wind blows, and the wind howls
I teeter, holding on with a prayer
The fight goes on, it seems... eternity
This part of me once drenched in lies, unseeing
Has died a thousand deaths, picked itself up
from every fall, worked with what was left
I believed, I lost. Now disbelief unbound
I've clammed up, the damage is done
I'm flailing, out of sight, in a depth no one can know
I'm on a buoy afloat, muffled cry lost in my mind
Don't urge me to take a step, I'll make my time
If I have to count pebbles in the sand
I'll leave with regret in my eyes. If that's all I have,
You gave it to me. I don't regret that love of once
upon a time. My regret is you, my regret is me.
I'll be strong. I'll forgive, I'll forget. If the only way
to do that is to accept. And you won't be able to
make me remember... when I choose to forget.
