Its. Difficult. For. Me. And. Hard. To. Hold. Back
i. Feel. So. Lost. So. Out. Of. place. Like. A. Train derailed. And. Way-- Off--of--track

It. Is. Difficult. For. Me. To hold. Back
i--feel--. Like. A. Window pane. That has. Been damaged. And. Cracked

I would. In. A. Heartbeat --give---To -her -my. -Right.- Arm
never --do--i-- want- her.-- To. Have. Any. Discomfort worry. Hurt. Or. Harm
She. Is reaching out. To me. Now. This. I know
I. Feel. Very. Troubled. I--dont-- know -what. To. Say. I dont. Know. Which. Direction. To. Go

It. Is. Difficult. For. Me. And so hard. To hold back
because. I do. Not for. Sure know if its a. Sign of. Peace. And. Happiness. Or. War. And. Attack-- and. Again stabbing. Me. Ruthlessly. In the back

For--. Her --she --knows. --Me. --Even-- now.-- Even. --After. --The.-- Divorce-- And. -All.--The. -Wrongs.---- Her.-- I.-- Would-- give. --My. -Right. --Arm
It. Is. Difficult. For. Me. And. So. Hard. To. Even. Hesitate. And. Hold. Back-- but. For. This. I. Know. My. --HEART--. Cant. Take. Another. Beating. I. Must. Protect. My. Heart. From. Fatal. Harm

It. Is. Difficult. For. Me. To. Hold. Back
with. Faith. Love. And. Hope. I. Will. Keep. On. Track

I. Do not. Know. What. Else. There. Is. To. Do. Or. Say
so. As.  In. Us. . All. We. Throw. In the. Towel. ----Let go. And. Let GOD  and humbly. pray. GODS--will --not--mine-- be--done--come--what--may

Byj. John d jungers
06--may--2016