My Life (post divorce and empty nest) in Sonnets
I am Worthless
Original Contemporary Poetry by author, Anonymous
This is a poem I write out of desperation and does not follow the traditional rules of a Shakespearean sonnet.
“I am Worthless”
I am worthless because I was sexually abused as a child, give up
I am worthless because, as a child, I abused another child, no matter that I didn't understand; I feel so guilty that I should just give up
I am worthless because I was abused by my brother as a child and no matter the circumstance, my parents supported my brother, if that wasn't a sign to give up, I don't know what would be!
I am worthless because my own mother tells me to take responsibility for my part in being the victim of abuse; I mean, if your own mother doesn't support you, there is nothing left to do, but give up
I am worthless because my supervisor told me in no uncertain terms that my professional career was going downhill and she could care less about me as a person, give up
I am worthless because I put my heart and soul into my career, yet continue to allow myself to be undervalued and unappreciated, so, just give up
I am worthless because I cannot maintain a balance between self-care and work; any symmetry between the two cause disastrous results, so, why not just give up?
I am worthless because my diagnosis of Bipolar II has led me down the abysmal road of medical leave; overwhelming feelings of failure cloud my vision, give up
I am worthless because my marriage failed, no matter that my ex-husband was abusive…give up
I am worthless because my daughter has disowned me and calls me by my first name, no matter that she doesn't understand, she doesn't need me, so, just give up
I am worthless because I divorced without demanding what I was entitled to; I obviously don't care about myself, so, seriously, GIVE UP!
I am worthless because no matter what I do, I find myself in debt; I'll die that way anyway, why not just give up now?
I am worthless because I cannot maintain a meaningful, romantic relationship, give up
I am worthless because I allow myself to be a doormat in relationships, which in turn allows me to be victimized time and again, so, just give up!
I am worthless because I have so many medical conditions and emotional triggers that I feel like a time-bomb; really, why would anyone even want to be with me; seriously, give up!
I am worthless because I have considered suicide as a permanent escape from the constant emotional pain; if that's not reason enough to give up, I don't know what is?
My existence is void
Or am I just paranoid?
All rights reserved by the author, Anonymous, through www.poetrypoem.com/jeanparr, Copyright 2018
This is a poem I write out of desperation and does not follow the traditional rules of a Shakespearean sonnet.
“I am Worthless”
I am worthless because I was sexually abused as a child, give up
I am worthless because, as a child, I abused another child, no matter that I didn't understand; I feel so guilty that I should just give up
I am worthless because I was abused by my brother as a child and no matter the circumstance, my parents supported my brother, if that wasn't a sign to give up, I don't know what would be!
I am worthless because my own mother tells me to take responsibility for my part in being the victim of abuse; I mean, if your own mother doesn't support you, there is nothing left to do, but give up
I am worthless because my supervisor told me in no uncertain terms that my professional career was going downhill and she could care less about me as a person, give up
I am worthless because I put my heart and soul into my career, yet continue to allow myself to be undervalued and unappreciated, so, just give up
I am worthless because I cannot maintain a balance between self-care and work; any symmetry between the two cause disastrous results, so, why not just give up?
I am worthless because my diagnosis of Bipolar II has led me down the abysmal road of medical leave; overwhelming feelings of failure cloud my vision, give up
I am worthless because my marriage failed, no matter that my ex-husband was abusive…give up
I am worthless because my daughter has disowned me and calls me by my first name, no matter that she doesn't understand, she doesn't need me, so, just give up
I am worthless because I divorced without demanding what I was entitled to; I obviously don't care about myself, so, seriously, GIVE UP!
I am worthless because no matter what I do, I find myself in debt; I'll die that way anyway, why not just give up now?
I am worthless because I cannot maintain a meaningful, romantic relationship, give up
I am worthless because I allow myself to be a doormat in relationships, which in turn allows me to be victimized time and again, so, just give up!
I am worthless because I have so many medical conditions and emotional triggers that I feel like a time-bomb; really, why would anyone even want to be with me; seriously, give up!
I am worthless because I have considered suicide as a permanent escape from the constant emotional pain; if that's not reason enough to give up, I don't know what is?
My existence is void
Or am I just paranoid?
All rights reserved by the author, Anonymous, through www.poetrypoem.com/jeanparr, Copyright 2018
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