Absent Minded
Disbelief
You dont know what to believe!
you preach jesus
and want to know the truth but runaway from reality
so where does that leave me
right here
walking into the chronicles of witches
and their books of shadows
and what powers you think they have manipulated
so i can cast the perfect spell
to prove to you there is no monster under your bed
and in your head you no longer need to fear
protection surrounds you
completesserentiy
What do you believe
you think everything is gods will
so you let your children die of horrible illnesses
maybe youre like me and think hey we dont have everything figured out
but then again you deny them pain killers and such just so you can preach to them holy dreams in their death beds
you should hear your own beliefs
soo many catch 22s
soo many dead ends
soo many holes in the plot
soo many dissssapointing theories leading nowhere
and where does that leave me?
right here!
reading philosophy
looking at buddha
thinking about alha
pondering mannoh
wondering if jesus was reborn
and we threw him away
because we are too stuck on how things change
even though our stars once only had eight constellations
and now have twelve
reading books on witchcraft
studying magick to make an amends to your demons you have hurt
trying to figure out the curse
of racism and predjudice
and why churches fight over god and whose right about how the world is going to end
like youre all placing bets
its sick really its sick!
so here i am studying the kaballah
reading tarot cards about the future
trying to inch open my intuition and third eye
to see if they exist
;lost and confused
praying to jesus or buddha or alha or california
i'm in disbelief
what curse do we need to dispell to stop kids from killing kids?
what promise did we not keep
that keeps us predjudice and blind?
what part of our reincarnated souls
feels the guilt we toy with subconciously
as we leave these messages behind?
Right here
here i am
in disbelief
saying look at yourselves
you are tortured with your own philosophy and psychology and
delusions and demonolgy
and im in disbelief
so im studying the ways of the old
the ones you drown and burnt
for being soo powerful
to break some curse
that pronbably doesnt exist
make up some metaphor
so you can end your brainwash nightmare
and the next chapter of life can take place
and youre thinking
if only it was that simple
what if it is?
you dont know what to believe!
you never looked inside or outside of yourslef
been taught one thing
and it got you by
was told it was the truth but never realised the lie inside of what it was
so now its something else
and you search your soul and you dig inside
and you runa way with humour
and anxiety and abuse
and egos
and intoxications
and disbelief
and all i can saf is look into my exercised mirror
an see yourself
you are more than this entrapment
you are more than that cult of thinking
its not foreshadowing
its not a riddle to how the world works
there are no life lessons there that are applicable
so put it on the shelf
its time to evolve
its time to be logical
its to manipulate the world around us
and ohnestly
im not lieing i have most of the future figured out
but it would nt matter
it would become a dream worth living
a dream worth shoving down one anothers throat
a dream that is the same
and pieces of a puzzle
like chapters of a play you keep repeating for world peace to deliver yourslef
from this intolerable existance
so help me out
Im in disbelief
you dont know what to believe
so lets think about it logically
is war a disease?
a chemical imbalance in the brains of men that cannot be cured
is it a worm
or an insect
an alien embryo in your stomache
that has taken control
and treats us this way
or is it religion
and psychology and greed and the hearts of man?
is it drugs and booze and guns and bombs
or is it anger and depression
or just the fact youre soo damn tired of living a perfect life
as you watch me suffer this way?
so here i am
studyin the astrology searching the skies for metaphors that have us hypnotised by the centuries
looking for evil hypnosis
and ill intent towards the future seers and breeds
whose hypnotised as what
and what country thinks they are who?
is life a joke to this power of the skies?
is it us me or you?
lets look at this from all perspectives....
why has satan never visited me?
why has god abandoned me?
why do i think with religious belief and dogma but can turn it off
where others spit on the thought of that reality?
you don't know what you believe!
so Nasa is building rocketships to get away from it all
theyre not searching for any intelligent life on earth first
theyre just going to leave us all
\too much to take for the geniuses of the world who could change everything too busy dreaming of another world
one that runs on common sense and logic
one where ther isnt soo much idiocy and i know theyre gonna leave me here with all of you
so it doesnt matter to me...
Im right here
crying for the world
and soldiers and prostitutes and sexually transmitted diseases and sexualities we dont allow and the ethnic cleansing and the terrorist we put in order cause were too scared to pull the trigger on them ourselves to do the world a favor like the hero would in a holly wood movie because its gods will not to, and obviously we all agree we deserve this punishment?
well not me!!!
I deserve way better than the lif ei live!
I deserve happiness
and respect from others and self
I deserve wisdom and knowledge and blessings
and a life worth living to its fullest
i dont deserve an endless punishment of
youre wrong youre wrong youre wrong youre wrong
cause thats what the bible says
You dont know what to believe!
Are we all brainwashed or playing some game of disbelief of reality?
are we all idiots who dont know the answers to two plus two
or cant predict that when that domino falls and hits that one its gonna fall
are you telling me after soo long youre still this incredibly stupid?
Well I'm not!
I'm in disbelief.....
So here I am writing psychobabble causing you to roll you eyes
chanting under the eyes of watchtowers and gods saying
maybe im nostradaumus and this is my attempt of entering god hood
to become the setting son before jesus arrives
maybe you all want to watch me burn for the wrongs you think ive done but never witnessed
well thats the wickedness in your heart my son
and i hope god forgives you
and i hope you find the way out of your cynical closedmindedness
so i can reach you
before the darkness closes in around you
and here i am working on this spell
this designer brainwash
this reverse psycholgy'
this onesided opinion
for everyside to agree upon
and the one moron who doesnt agree
is either the hippocritical me
or the schoolyard bully
and we're gonna kill him agfain and again every century
What do you believ?
you cant even write it down its so intricate!
its soo full of holes and theories and dilemas and things forgotten
its not even worth it
its soo full of insanity and denial and selfrighteous egotitical holier than thou
it makes me sick
and i want to throw up in my mouth
whose right whose wrong
and all you do is build more bombs and sell more guns
you cant be serious
im not informed enough to make my ultimatum
im not fascinated by the destruction youre after
but if you long for it that bad
turn it on yourself
end your own nightmare
and we'll all l;ive happily ever after
What do you believe?
can you even sort it out?
can you hear your own soul tell you the truth or do you just shut it out?
and as i shake my head at another vision of disaster
i think theres no point in looking to the future any further
theres no reason to go on like this
so here i am in my metaphor
representing whatever i want at whatever point i want to
believing who and what i need to to survive to get on top
to solve this case
and stop oit before it swallows all of us and becomes my own dream come true
feat of unequal measure
now ivbe let you in
still blind and absolutely eyes wide open
god tired of god tired of god tired of god tired of god
and the score has never been this close
but none have been human before
so wish me luck
and hope i pass the tests before me as i cross the nexus into the realms of
disbelief to the truth of the tests i face
to overcome the surprise birthday
joke on me
its all a test for a god
and im no god
im just a man
a philosopher
a poet
a blinded
intuitive
unlucky
cursed
brainwashed
homosexual man
and im in disbelief
with a few tricks up my sleeve
and i know theyve seen them all before
but its a matter of being
you preach jesus
and want to know the truth but runaway from reality
so where does that leave me
right here
walking into the chronicles of witches
and their books of shadows
and what powers you think they have manipulated
so i can cast the perfect spell
to prove to you there is no monster under your bed
and in your head you no longer need to fear
protection surrounds you
completesserentiy
What do you believe
you think everything is gods will
so you let your children die of horrible illnesses
maybe youre like me and think hey we dont have everything figured out
but then again you deny them pain killers and such just so you can preach to them holy dreams in their death beds
you should hear your own beliefs
soo many catch 22s
soo many dead ends
soo many holes in the plot
soo many dissssapointing theories leading nowhere
and where does that leave me?
right here!
reading philosophy
looking at buddha
thinking about alha
pondering mannoh
wondering if jesus was reborn
and we threw him away
because we are too stuck on how things change
even though our stars once only had eight constellations
and now have twelve
reading books on witchcraft
studying magick to make an amends to your demons you have hurt
trying to figure out the curse
of racism and predjudice
and why churches fight over god and whose right about how the world is going to end
like youre all placing bets
its sick really its sick!
so here i am studying the kaballah
reading tarot cards about the future
trying to inch open my intuition and third eye
to see if they exist
;lost and confused
praying to jesus or buddha or alha or california
i'm in disbelief
what curse do we need to dispell to stop kids from killing kids?
what promise did we not keep
that keeps us predjudice and blind?
what part of our reincarnated souls
feels the guilt we toy with subconciously
as we leave these messages behind?
Right here
here i am
in disbelief
saying look at yourselves
you are tortured with your own philosophy and psychology and
delusions and demonolgy
and im in disbelief
so im studying the ways of the old
the ones you drown and burnt
for being soo powerful
to break some curse
that pronbably doesnt exist
make up some metaphor
so you can end your brainwash nightmare
and the next chapter of life can take place
and youre thinking
if only it was that simple
what if it is?
you dont know what to believe!
you never looked inside or outside of yourslef
been taught one thing
and it got you by
was told it was the truth but never realised the lie inside of what it was
so now its something else
and you search your soul and you dig inside
and you runa way with humour
and anxiety and abuse
and egos
and intoxications
and disbelief
and all i can saf is look into my exercised mirror
an see yourself
you are more than this entrapment
you are more than that cult of thinking
its not foreshadowing
its not a riddle to how the world works
there are no life lessons there that are applicable
so put it on the shelf
its time to evolve
its time to be logical
its to manipulate the world around us
and ohnestly
im not lieing i have most of the future figured out
but it would nt matter
it would become a dream worth living
a dream worth shoving down one anothers throat
a dream that is the same
and pieces of a puzzle
like chapters of a play you keep repeating for world peace to deliver yourslef
from this intolerable existance
so help me out
Im in disbelief
you dont know what to believe
so lets think about it logically
is war a disease?
a chemical imbalance in the brains of men that cannot be cured
is it a worm
or an insect
an alien embryo in your stomache
that has taken control
and treats us this way
or is it religion
and psychology and greed and the hearts of man?
is it drugs and booze and guns and bombs
or is it anger and depression
or just the fact youre soo damn tired of living a perfect life
as you watch me suffer this way?
so here i am
studyin the astrology searching the skies for metaphors that have us hypnotised by the centuries
looking for evil hypnosis
and ill intent towards the future seers and breeds
whose hypnotised as what
and what country thinks they are who?
is life a joke to this power of the skies?
is it us me or you?
lets look at this from all perspectives....
why has satan never visited me?
why has god abandoned me?
why do i think with religious belief and dogma but can turn it off
where others spit on the thought of that reality?
you don't know what you believe!
so Nasa is building rocketships to get away from it all
theyre not searching for any intelligent life on earth first
theyre just going to leave us all
\too much to take for the geniuses of the world who could change everything too busy dreaming of another world
one that runs on common sense and logic
one where ther isnt soo much idiocy and i know theyre gonna leave me here with all of you
so it doesnt matter to me...
Im right here
crying for the world
and soldiers and prostitutes and sexually transmitted diseases and sexualities we dont allow and the ethnic cleansing and the terrorist we put in order cause were too scared to pull the trigger on them ourselves to do the world a favor like the hero would in a holly wood movie because its gods will not to, and obviously we all agree we deserve this punishment?
well not me!!!
I deserve way better than the lif ei live!
I deserve happiness
and respect from others and self
I deserve wisdom and knowledge and blessings
and a life worth living to its fullest
i dont deserve an endless punishment of
youre wrong youre wrong youre wrong youre wrong
cause thats what the bible says
You dont know what to believe!
Are we all brainwashed or playing some game of disbelief of reality?
are we all idiots who dont know the answers to two plus two
or cant predict that when that domino falls and hits that one its gonna fall
are you telling me after soo long youre still this incredibly stupid?
Well I'm not!
I'm in disbelief.....
So here I am writing psychobabble causing you to roll you eyes
chanting under the eyes of watchtowers and gods saying
maybe im nostradaumus and this is my attempt of entering god hood
to become the setting son before jesus arrives
maybe you all want to watch me burn for the wrongs you think ive done but never witnessed
well thats the wickedness in your heart my son
and i hope god forgives you
and i hope you find the way out of your cynical closedmindedness
so i can reach you
before the darkness closes in around you
and here i am working on this spell
this designer brainwash
this reverse psycholgy'
this onesided opinion
for everyside to agree upon
and the one moron who doesnt agree
is either the hippocritical me
or the schoolyard bully
and we're gonna kill him agfain and again every century
What do you believ?
you cant even write it down its so intricate!
its soo full of holes and theories and dilemas and things forgotten
its not even worth it
its soo full of insanity and denial and selfrighteous egotitical holier than thou
it makes me sick
and i want to throw up in my mouth
whose right whose wrong
and all you do is build more bombs and sell more guns
you cant be serious
im not informed enough to make my ultimatum
im not fascinated by the destruction youre after
but if you long for it that bad
turn it on yourself
end your own nightmare
and we'll all l;ive happily ever after
What do you believe?
can you even sort it out?
can you hear your own soul tell you the truth or do you just shut it out?
and as i shake my head at another vision of disaster
i think theres no point in looking to the future any further
theres no reason to go on like this
so here i am in my metaphor
representing whatever i want at whatever point i want to
believing who and what i need to to survive to get on top
to solve this case
and stop oit before it swallows all of us and becomes my own dream come true
feat of unequal measure
now ivbe let you in
still blind and absolutely eyes wide open
god tired of god tired of god tired of god tired of god
and the score has never been this close
but none have been human before
so wish me luck
and hope i pass the tests before me as i cross the nexus into the realms of
disbelief to the truth of the tests i face
to overcome the surprise birthday
joke on me
its all a test for a god
and im no god
im just a man
a philosopher
a poet
a blinded
intuitive
unlucky
cursed
brainwashed
homosexual man
and im in disbelief
with a few tricks up my sleeve
and i know theyve seen them all before
but its a matter of being
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