Absent Minded
I wanted a Jury
11 year Ago
and it still burdens my soul
i will never forget
what happened
but the faces
where did they go
i do not remember the names
of my peers who were murdered and overdosed forcefully on speed
and now they are underground and i know the truth of justice
a house fire
and three dead teens
I was supposed to be next
me and my girlfriend
her sister too
two of my trusted friend s had told me
maybe they were high
there is nothing i can do to change what happened
or the fire in her room
I got arrested
after bathing the cat
and ripping up porn to set it on fire
after the mother came down
to tell me to get out and saw me chanting for protection and repenting
mans evil ways
for i thought the truth would come to surface eventually
well here it is
WALRUS knows who did it
they drove them around
and stuck needles in their arms
dropped them off flat lined
and in a month three of my peers died
on the cement
of the emergency of the hospital in a small town called Edson
me and my girlfriend were next
and i went nuts after getting high
lit her room on fire
I'll never forget the screams
for it still makes me cry
wish i was crying now
like i was last night
so i end up in prison
and ask for a jury for my charges
i was already dead
in prison
no one likes an arsonist
3 of my friends dead
3 of them in a month
I'm supposed to be next
trying to stay alive in jail
as the guards tell the inmates my charges
isn't that messed up
If they would have given me a jury
there would have been justice
for those three murdered teens
and the reason for that house fire would have hit the news and the streets
but here i am today
11 years later still not over how cruel the world can be
lost soo many years off my life
and forced to swallow medication
as the doctors don't solve crimes
just prevent you from getting sick
so this is justice?
this is what it truly is?
this is the reason people take things into their own hands....
if only the police would have listened as me and that girl
called it in
if only they would have listened and gave me a court case
the mystery i left behind of broken bricks
and twelve prophetic poems on file
At a forensic hospital would be solved and i wouldn't be heavily medicated
It was walrus
and i could help find out his real name
but obviously being a million dollar industry of poverty and pills now
who really cares if those three dead teens get justice after all
and i get to stop crying for how unfair the world is and was
what would you have done
if the police refused to listen and another one of your friends died
and you were next?
would you do something drastic
or just wait to die?
would you burn the parents house down to say you cant live here anymore
run and hide?
and the abuse in thee group homes
the abuse in the hospitals
you have no idea what I've been through
i want it over
there was reason for what i did
there are reasons for what i do
and i cry all the time
and no one cares to tell you the truth
so be prepared
when it happens to you
and u live in some small town
and the police wont get involved
and the drug lords are killing your friends and are after you
what do you do?
what do you do?
there is no justice
or id have a job working with paraplegic and autistic children
but WALRUS knows who did it
maybe he even killed them
and i never get to say sorry
i just feel like a drunk driver in an accident
that walked away and crippled two or three people who didn't know all the facts
if only they would have given me a jury and the lawyer
didn't screw me over
id be doing something more with my life
but whatever
i don't care anymore
I'll never be the same
I'm an underground name
most people who are anybody know
and they all say what a shame
and in the hospital i wrote amnesty
not like that did me any good
the story just gets worse and there is nothing you can do
one day I'll wake up or come unglued
I'm sorry it went down like this
but this wasn't how it was planned
it was supposed to be a way to get a murderer not me
and now I'm the one paying a price being judged and thrown away
more times than i care to tell you
so am i glad to be alive
as they stone me to death?
not really
sometimes i think it would have been better
if Walrus would have got to me too
but either way nothings going to change
and i still know a thing or two
just keep playing the game of the system
and wait for a hero and a dream come true
but nothing will ease the heartache
and justice shouldn't take this long
my three friends were murdered and i wanted to take the bastard down
I'm sorry
I really am
and all i hear is life isn't fair
Trust me I'm one of those who knows
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I wanted a Jury
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